I am in serious need of therapy. I have so much bottled up emotion. I hate letting it all out to one person. My partner is getting stressed out. I wish I could just be a happier person naturally. But real mental health issues stand in the way.
I don't have any real life close friends I can talk to. It's very lonely to think about that. Everyone has a friend they can count on, I seem to be missing one. The thing is, I'm a good friend to others, but for some reason never make lasting relationships with people anymore. It's breaking me.
I don't know why it feels ok to rant here. It isn't private or anonymous. But I feel like I can breathe if I say something, and someone somewhere listens.
But my true problems. They are locked tight. Until I have the right person to talk to.
I don't have any real life close friends I can talk to. It's very lonely to think about that. Everyone has a friend they can count on, I seem to be missing one. The thing is, I'm a good friend to others, but for some reason never make lasting relationships with people anymore. It's breaking me.
I don't know why it feels ok to rant here. It isn't private or anonymous. But I feel like I can breathe if I say something, and someone somewhere listens.
But my true problems. They are locked tight. Until I have the right person to talk to.
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jomni:
I've found that therapists, like most people have been difficult to connect to. When I read this blog it's like looking back into a tunnel of time, I feel like this is similar to the way I've felt in the past. I've had problems with bottling up emotions and taking them out on the wrong people, mostly my love at the time. It strains the relationship when it's one of the only things I wanted to keep. You can find a way to work through your emotions, we all have the capability, it's not easy. I personally have found that hallucinogenic use along with a spiritual belief (beyond organized religion) with yoga and positive people in my life....have been the right ingredients to make myself more even keeled emotionally.if you want someone to talk to there are lots of like minded people out in the world and some of these nice people are right here reading your blog and sending you mental positivity, grab it. 
longlostsapper:
I miss having friends to call and talk to when you needed them