I am emo hardcore. Hard rock exterior, squishy emo insides. I'm so emo it hurts. My emo condenses into a black hole and spits out Raffi.
That'd make a great shirt. "Raffi is Emo". Copyright.
I contacted an ex today. Err, looking at the time I guess that was yesterday. I'll go by the "sun's up" ruling and say today. Yeah.
Man, she was the coolest girl of the dating lot. 3+ hours of conversational fun. That's hard to come by. Why didn't we last? Inexperience on both parts. One of those early relationships that is sacrificed to the learning curve. If I could do it all again, I think I'd go in with the wisdom to not like my first few girlfriends, since the relationship would suck anyway. Instead I picked a keeper.
What made this hard is that apparently someone else recognized her as a keeper, 6 months strong. There's a fair amount of jealously there. :break to double-check the meanings of envy and jealousy: Oh look, both work. Envy fits better. Lemme rephrase the first sentence of this para-mo-graph: what made this hard is that apparently she recognized _someone else_ as a keeper. I'm left waiting for a girl I'm sweet on to recognize that. I wonder when she'll come.
So...obviously I still like her. A lot. One of those ones you try to deny the word love, but know that's what it is anyway? Yeah. Groovy. :michael jackson tenor: But..she..HAAAS another lova! And he gave her an std...
The one that got away, away, the one that got away...
I think I'll not find better again.
Emo like Raffi.
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Neighbors.
If you are going to try to put yourself on a pedestal when arguing with a neighbor, there is, I'm sure, a small list of things that you DON'T SAY. Something along the lines of, "I bet you that I pay more for rent than ANYONE here" while pointing up and down the hall may SEEM like a good idea, but it's probably not, especially if you, say, live in public housing? If you live in [St. Paul] public housing, your rent is automatically 30% of your reported income. The city of Saint Paul plops down the difference to your landlord. THEREFORE to try and get all Pope by saying "I pay more rent than anyone here" is to say "I have more money than ALL ya'll bitches" as well as probably "I do not understand the basic outline of the public housing system; my landlord gets the same amount off of me as anyone else here" as well as "I am an asshat."
I'm sorry, concepts like "I pay a marginally higher fraction of my actual rent than you, therefore I arbitrarily deserve more respect" just don't cut it with me. "I am working a long job, therefore I can play my music really loud to piss you off, and feebly lie and say it's girlfriend problems getting to me when you confront me about it." He puts everything on his girlfriend, what the hell? "I haven't been loud in, like 3 months, so it must be my girlfriend. I'll talk to her about it."
Fess up you pussy little retard. Accept responsibility for yourself. The guy's older than me and he's being passive/aggressive like a 14 year old, and lying like he got caught shoplifting. His idea of respect to others is, methinks, drastically different than what he expects back. To him, respect someone else is talking nice to your face while trying to talk shit and fuck with you when you're not looking. Invariably he underestimates whether I know what he's up to.
Fucking tell me I had my music too loud. Stand the 15 seconds while I laugh at you and point out that your own bass makes me scramble to make sure I don't have any breakables that could vibrate off the counter edges. Be a man. THEN, we can have a real conversation about our paper thin walls and how to respect each other. But "I pay more rent, respect me?" About as much as a billionare whining about tax brackets. Eat me. Then I'll respect you.
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A girl I knew from last year decided to IM me while I was talking to my ex tonight. I knew irony was going to split out. This girl hasn't talked to me since the school year ended. Some people miss high school drama: she must be one of them. Just trying to get attention. Apparently she just got back from some guy she gets drunk and makes out with?
(mm, smilies, use more often) He...rejected her, and so she, coming off a buzz, decides to message me and ask me what I *really* thought of her back at Normandale? I flat out told her she didn't want to ask me that coming off a buzz.
Is there a nice way to say, "I haven't missed you, have a nice life"?
Pulls out all this stuff to get attention: "I liked you after I broke up with XXXX and I realized you weren't an asshole [yeah, thanks. I don't think I'm an asshole either.]. Why didn't you ever make a move on me?" You sodded bint, we went on a date and you rejected every move I made just to touch you. You knew damn well what I was up to on these occasions: X, x, Y, y. "Oh, I'm a chickenshit, you know me" Yes, I know you're a tease, and that I'm better off with you in Iowa, and forgetting my contact info.
"I tried to get you to notice when i used to play with your hair"
In the greenroom where we met, my hair was God. For some reason, soft Shirley Temple ringlets, once discovered, meant that any woman within arm's reach had her hands in my hair; half of them would cross a room to get to arm's reach. I love a good head massage. This was a very good thing. It was *not* any indicator of attraction.
Now, I don't understand Karma, but I figure my last 4 lives must have been as abusive pimps to deserve this. An abusive pimp who played his music too loud.
She said she'll be back in town in a few weeks, and I take this to mean she'll be coming around to school. That might actually be fun. "Hey Tim!" "Oh, hey. Let me introduce you two. Ex who I endure classes with who calls me to extort a favor every so often, meet Tease who decided she liked me after moving to Iowa. I'm going to go get a soda."
Yes, I had to deal with that ex today, too. I just don't think I can rant anymore today. I assure you though, she's a bitch.
I would like to take these last moments to assure the TV audience that I am not, in fact, a misogynist nor am I chauvinistic. I'm just unlucky, and bitter.
That'd make a great shirt. "Raffi is Emo". Copyright.
I contacted an ex today. Err, looking at the time I guess that was yesterday. I'll go by the "sun's up" ruling and say today. Yeah.
Man, she was the coolest girl of the dating lot. 3+ hours of conversational fun. That's hard to come by. Why didn't we last? Inexperience on both parts. One of those early relationships that is sacrificed to the learning curve. If I could do it all again, I think I'd go in with the wisdom to not like my first few girlfriends, since the relationship would suck anyway. Instead I picked a keeper.
What made this hard is that apparently someone else recognized her as a keeper, 6 months strong. There's a fair amount of jealously there. :break to double-check the meanings of envy and jealousy: Oh look, both work. Envy fits better. Lemme rephrase the first sentence of this para-mo-graph: what made this hard is that apparently she recognized _someone else_ as a keeper. I'm left waiting for a girl I'm sweet on to recognize that. I wonder when she'll come.
So...obviously I still like her. A lot. One of those ones you try to deny the word love, but know that's what it is anyway? Yeah. Groovy. :michael jackson tenor: But..she..HAAAS another lova! And he gave her an std...
The one that got away, away, the one that got away...
I think I'll not find better again.
Emo like Raffi.
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Neighbors.
If you are going to try to put yourself on a pedestal when arguing with a neighbor, there is, I'm sure, a small list of things that you DON'T SAY. Something along the lines of, "I bet you that I pay more for rent than ANYONE here" while pointing up and down the hall may SEEM like a good idea, but it's probably not, especially if you, say, live in public housing? If you live in [St. Paul] public housing, your rent is automatically 30% of your reported income. The city of Saint Paul plops down the difference to your landlord. THEREFORE to try and get all Pope by saying "I pay more rent than anyone here" is to say "I have more money than ALL ya'll bitches" as well as probably "I do not understand the basic outline of the public housing system; my landlord gets the same amount off of me as anyone else here" as well as "I am an asshat."
I'm sorry, concepts like "I pay a marginally higher fraction of my actual rent than you, therefore I arbitrarily deserve more respect" just don't cut it with me. "I am working a long job, therefore I can play my music really loud to piss you off, and feebly lie and say it's girlfriend problems getting to me when you confront me about it." He puts everything on his girlfriend, what the hell? "I haven't been loud in, like 3 months, so it must be my girlfriend. I'll talk to her about it."
Fess up you pussy little retard. Accept responsibility for yourself. The guy's older than me and he's being passive/aggressive like a 14 year old, and lying like he got caught shoplifting. His idea of respect to others is, methinks, drastically different than what he expects back. To him, respect someone else is talking nice to your face while trying to talk shit and fuck with you when you're not looking. Invariably he underestimates whether I know what he's up to.
Fucking tell me I had my music too loud. Stand the 15 seconds while I laugh at you and point out that your own bass makes me scramble to make sure I don't have any breakables that could vibrate off the counter edges. Be a man. THEN, we can have a real conversation about our paper thin walls and how to respect each other. But "I pay more rent, respect me?" About as much as a billionare whining about tax brackets. Eat me. Then I'll respect you.
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A girl I knew from last year decided to IM me while I was talking to my ex tonight. I knew irony was going to split out. This girl hasn't talked to me since the school year ended. Some people miss high school drama: she must be one of them. Just trying to get attention. Apparently she just got back from some guy she gets drunk and makes out with?
(mm, smilies, use more often) He...rejected her, and so she, coming off a buzz, decides to message me and ask me what I *really* thought of her back at Normandale? I flat out told her she didn't want to ask me that coming off a buzz.
Is there a nice way to say, "I haven't missed you, have a nice life"?
Pulls out all this stuff to get attention: "I liked you after I broke up with XXXX and I realized you weren't an asshole [yeah, thanks. I don't think I'm an asshole either.]. Why didn't you ever make a move on me?" You sodded bint, we went on a date and you rejected every move I made just to touch you. You knew damn well what I was up to on these occasions: X, x, Y, y. "Oh, I'm a chickenshit, you know me" Yes, I know you're a tease, and that I'm better off with you in Iowa, and forgetting my contact info.
"I tried to get you to notice when i used to play with your hair"
In the greenroom where we met, my hair was God. For some reason, soft Shirley Temple ringlets, once discovered, meant that any woman within arm's reach had her hands in my hair; half of them would cross a room to get to arm's reach. I love a good head massage. This was a very good thing. It was *not* any indicator of attraction.
Now, I don't understand Karma, but I figure my last 4 lives must have been as abusive pimps to deserve this. An abusive pimp who played his music too loud.
She said she'll be back in town in a few weeks, and I take this to mean she'll be coming around to school.
That might actually be fun. "Hey Tim!" "Oh, hey. Let me introduce you two. Ex who I endure classes with who calls me to extort a favor every so often, meet Tease who decided she liked me after moving to Iowa. I'm going to go get a soda."
Yes, I had to deal with that ex today, too. I just don't think I can rant anymore today. I assure you though, she's a bitch.
I would like to take these last moments to assure the TV audience that I am not, in fact, a misogynist nor am I chauvinistic. I'm just unlucky, and bitter.