a waste, empty space
days pass and blur into nighttime, the only thing that marks that for me is the automatic outdoor light the neighbors have so the neighborhood kids won't break and enter to jump in their pool naked. what has become of me? An NPR istening-horror music-loving guy that can't get hired in this forsaken town...I don't know... I look over my shoulder and all I see is people that were once friends turned into aquantncies or even worse unknowns, married, parents, complacent, breezing thru life...why rock the fucking boat? ...right...so sad. so, where am I? who am I? the everlasting questions from the folks is always the best ones..."what do you want? we just want to see you happy..I DON'T KNOW...will marrying fill that void? will waking up one day and giving it all up be enough?...I don't think so. Tried and true, when you are who you are and are very sure of it God will need you to get back to that, don't expect to be something else because it won't work. How did that fight club line go? I am jack's hate?...I truly can't remember, but if it is then that's how I feel I am my own ticking subconscious waiting for the time to be free. Don't worry, this is not a REDRUM alert this is me foaming at the mouth for a new something.
days pass and blur into nighttime, the only thing that marks that for me is the automatic outdoor light the neighbors have so the neighborhood kids won't break and enter to jump in their pool naked. what has become of me? An NPR istening-horror music-loving guy that can't get hired in this forsaken town...I don't know... I look over my shoulder and all I see is people that were once friends turned into aquantncies or even worse unknowns, married, parents, complacent, breezing thru life...why rock the fucking boat? ...right...so sad. so, where am I? who am I? the everlasting questions from the folks is always the best ones..."what do you want? we just want to see you happy..I DON'T KNOW...will marrying fill that void? will waking up one day and giving it all up be enough?...I don't think so. Tried and true, when you are who you are and are very sure of it God will need you to get back to that, don't expect to be something else because it won't work. How did that fight club line go? I am jack's hate?...I truly can't remember, but if it is then that's how I feel I am my own ticking subconscious waiting for the time to be free. Don't worry, this is not a REDRUM alert this is me foaming at the mouth for a new something.