I do not recall when this turned into the confessional blog, I guess I spent so much time redirecting people to my internet site that I forgot now anyone can access the info I post...it's a strange feeling. Things are very very weird for me, I keep going round and round on topics and i just can't seen to move, like somehow i've been paralyzed in my own mind or fears or whatever, what I do know is that after this whole time trying to get to know myself I keep surprising by fucking up, it is not an intentional thing, I just crave the feeling of completion when it is all right. Some people will surprise you, people are strange said The Doors and I think Jim was right on the target, advice and clean unbiased perspective come from the people you least expect it, I've grown to accept and love that, scratch that, like it.... I don't approve of the world constantly reminding me I don't know what I'm doing but I can appreciate it.
I want to create but have no idea how to.
There, I accept that.
WTF!
Help 911.
also, I think Im in love with the wrong person...yet again.
I want to create but have no idea how to.
There, I accept that.
WTF!
Help 911.
also, I think Im in love with the wrong person...yet again.

a good friend once sent me this quote. long long ago. i think it was in some song.
"Worrying is as effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubble gum. The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that never crossed your worried mind, the kind that blindside you at 4 p.m. on some idle Tuesday."
go outside dammit.