jprenda

I'm about done with this recovery shit. I have no motivation for this anymore. Told my sponsor I was going home and sorry for wasting his time. All I want is a needle in my arm. Fuck this shit. I don't want to do it. "Play the tape all the way through..." Well, I have and I am ready to go back out on the streets and be a fucking junkie. I'm tired of fighting everyday. I can't do it anymore. To wake up every morning and think about using. To have a plan all put together and then try to not think like that is taking all my energy. I cannot fight anymore.