Blah! INSOMNIA!
100 mgs of trazodone is not cutting it tonight. My camera broke and my phone froze up. Yesterday made a year since my little girl passed away and I haven't been able to talk to my family for days. I've been eating nothing but mac and cheese and ramen noodles for two weeks. I'm trying to be grateful for what I DO have but sometimes it is so hard to flip my negative thoughts. Early recovery is difficult. I have been struggling. I feel so lonely tonight. I moved away from NJ about two months ago to get clean and have been in FL. I have met some wonderful people but I do not feel like I really connect with anyone here. I'm not talking about a sexual relationship kind of lonely. I just want to meet someone that I can really connect with and have a good time with. I feel like I am so different. I feel unwanted.
That is all I'm going to bitch about tonight. If anyone actually reads this, thank you...
-Joshua
100 mgs of trazodone is not cutting it tonight. My camera broke and my phone froze up. Yesterday made a year since my little girl passed away and I haven't been able to talk to my family for days. I've been eating nothing but mac and cheese and ramen noodles for two weeks. I'm trying to be grateful for what I DO have but sometimes it is so hard to flip my negative thoughts. Early recovery is difficult. I have been struggling. I feel so lonely tonight. I moved away from NJ about two months ago to get clean and have been in FL. I have met some wonderful people but I do not feel like I really connect with anyone here. I'm not talking about a sexual relationship kind of lonely. I just want to meet someone that I can really connect with and have a good time with. I feel like I am so different. I feel unwanted.
That is all I'm going to bitch about tonight. If anyone actually reads this, thank you...
-Joshua
darksong:
Good luck to you. Maybe if you try to live more in the now and not focus on the past or future as much, that will help. The locals only hangouts are probably the best places to meet cool people in Florida. Tourist hang outs in Florida are usually lame in comparison.