OK, bitches... update on my life since i never do this shite. I hate Hawaii.. big surpirze there. I guess this is where I say Deathhippie tell Blue to start a fly SyNafay home fund.
I have painted my home and added decor. And I play to many god damn video games. I am trying to think about where I want to work, that will take me with my tats... not having much luck. I get shit about it everyday from UMBRA... which stresses me out even more... I dont think he realizes it.. which I will probably get shite for this but here is another rant.
I am the type of person you hound me too much i give up completely. My parents learned this a long time ago. At first in my fuck ups and lack of modivation you might think if i dont say something it will never happen... It will but on my time and then if you keep bringing it up well it gets pushed back. Why i dont know why im like this I just am I guess its the rebel in me that says "fuck off ill get to it" bt if you still get on me about shite i stress out if i I care about you then its just harder for me to even put my mind in the right mode to fix it. then I lose it and then a nervous break down. and i retort to a small world where I dont face shit. In other words I dont really know how to change this its just me... and well I am more stresssed then I need to be cus I feel hounded on every fucking day and now I just dont want to deal with it anymore cus I know the next day I will hear it again, I feel that if I do make a step in the right direction its just not good enough sometimes... or never enough... and why the hell am I even writing this shit like you all care. Look I guess what it gets to is Ill get it done on my time no one elses... I just have to find who I am in it to do it. if any of that makes since great if not fuck it.
I have painted my home and added decor. And I play to many god damn video games. I am trying to think about where I want to work, that will take me with my tats... not having much luck. I get shit about it everyday from UMBRA... which stresses me out even more... I dont think he realizes it.. which I will probably get shite for this but here is another rant.
I am the type of person you hound me too much i give up completely. My parents learned this a long time ago. At first in my fuck ups and lack of modivation you might think if i dont say something it will never happen... It will but on my time and then if you keep bringing it up well it gets pushed back. Why i dont know why im like this I just am I guess its the rebel in me that says "fuck off ill get to it" bt if you still get on me about shite i stress out if i I care about you then its just harder for me to even put my mind in the right mode to fix it. then I lose it and then a nervous break down. and i retort to a small world where I dont face shit. In other words I dont really know how to change this its just me... and well I am more stresssed then I need to be cus I feel hounded on every fucking day and now I just dont want to deal with it anymore cus I know the next day I will hear it again, I feel that if I do make a step in the right direction its just not good enough sometimes... or never enough... and why the hell am I even writing this shit like you all care. Look I guess what it gets to is Ill get it done on my time no one elses... I just have to find who I am in it to do it. if any of that makes since great if not fuck it.
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that doesnt help, but i figured something is better than nothing an you seem cool as shit. you got this shite down babe no worries, jobs come and go just along as you get something that doesnt annoy the fuck out of you and just do other stuff to make you happy. well im done ranting stuff you already know and you most likely have much better advice becaus eyou have been alive longer
Peace
Red
but on a light note my religous brother and his wife come to town tomorrow till fri. So, that will be fun the water park driving more driving no bars no drinking hereing about god... yeah good times... and i wil be going ah lalalalala ah lalalalala.
So yeah after that I am going to go drink and sin.
Went to the denist today... now why on earth are you going to carry a conversation while your hands are in someones mouth. Come on now... you cleaning my teeth making me bleed you have tools in my mouth and you want me to talk.. now that is torture. sheer torture.