What is up with travelling? How can it be so damn strressful sometimes? Talk about going somewhere else to get away from things and finding them there waiting for you when you get there.
Toronto was good. Good family connections there make it easy to be myself. We can talk shit about the US, talk shit about the president, about racism, about... interesting things. I have other relatives that will make small talk for 2 days straight, adn I can't handle. But here its a real conversation about ideas. Nothing is taboo, we talk about sex, about our insecurities, our plans. They are my second cousins, and they taught me how to play chinese checkers and chess. I taught them dominoes,,,
Chess rocks, by the way. If you don't know how to play, find someone who knows how and ask them for a few pointers.
I felt a bit anxious visiting a friend there who I had not seen in a few months. He and his wife live there, the quiete life. they are both students and they are both poor. and have been that way for about 10 years. But that is not what made me anxious. When you travel to another city, don't you feel compelled to go see new stuff, all the time? Do you plan first? I have all kind of ideals about how it should work, the down time and the go time. And then I get sketched out. LIke someone is expecting something of me at every moment.
He was expecting nothing, really. Except to know what I was planning on dioing. Which was not clear.
Of course, the trip was great. Can't wait to go back to Toronto.
Toronto was good. Good family connections there make it easy to be myself. We can talk shit about the US, talk shit about the president, about racism, about... interesting things. I have other relatives that will make small talk for 2 days straight, adn I can't handle. But here its a real conversation about ideas. Nothing is taboo, we talk about sex, about our insecurities, our plans. They are my second cousins, and they taught me how to play chinese checkers and chess. I taught them dominoes,,,
Chess rocks, by the way. If you don't know how to play, find someone who knows how and ask them for a few pointers.
I felt a bit anxious visiting a friend there who I had not seen in a few months. He and his wife live there, the quiete life. they are both students and they are both poor. and have been that way for about 10 years. But that is not what made me anxious. When you travel to another city, don't you feel compelled to go see new stuff, all the time? Do you plan first? I have all kind of ideals about how it should work, the down time and the go time. And then I get sketched out. LIke someone is expecting something of me at every moment.
He was expecting nothing, really. Except to know what I was planning on dioing. Which was not clear.
Of course, the trip was great. Can't wait to go back to Toronto.
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Pertinent observation. In France where I live, you may also say that "the center has shifted to the right". :-/
Reading your journal, I wondered if the organisation you worked for was....
but maybe you have a motive of some sort for putting it aside.
Arg! it's a small world after all!