the true question is......Who cares?
I am not allowed to be sad, about losing a partner? about losing a room mate? about losing a friend? I am not allowed to be happy. I am ultra fucking stressed out.
I want Stephanie. I want her to love me, like i love her. I want her to marry me, have children, be happy. For me knowing my significant other is happy makes me happy.
So when she says I eed to save up so i can move out. How am I not supposed to be sad? of all the relationships i have EVER known. when one person says, hey I think i am going to get a place of my own, because i want to live alone....that is a sign that you two are better apart. And that is the sign being thrown at me everyday it seems. but follow that now with I love you, i want to cuddle with you, i want to spend time with you. I don't want you dating anyone else. And I am all confused.
Is love this hard or fucked up?
no, It is just me, I am fucked up.
I don't need drugs, I need a twelve guage.
I am not allowed to be sad, about losing a partner? about losing a room mate? about losing a friend? I am not allowed to be happy. I am ultra fucking stressed out.
I want Stephanie. I want her to love me, like i love her. I want her to marry me, have children, be happy. For me knowing my significant other is happy makes me happy.
So when she says I eed to save up so i can move out. How am I not supposed to be sad? of all the relationships i have EVER known. when one person says, hey I think i am going to get a place of my own, because i want to live alone....that is a sign that you two are better apart. And that is the sign being thrown at me everyday it seems. but follow that now with I love you, i want to cuddle with you, i want to spend time with you. I don't want you dating anyone else. And I am all confused.
Is love this hard or fucked up?
no, It is just me, I am fucked up.
I don't need drugs, I need a twelve guage.
genevalw:
no..you need therapy....if u really want to keep it open that's fine with me....if you want to meet people go ahead George...I cannot offer you that kind of commitment and security right now.
genevalw:
ok...its not a matter of waiting George.....and therapy isn't supposed to be something I go to to make me decide I want to be with you.