Well I went to the doc and now I'm more stressed then i was before, I just want it to be done.
On top of all this my grandma is still in the hospital. After scaring all the doctors and them scaring the family with a we give her hours maybe days to live. Shes still out of it but i swing by every day after work and shes starting to start conversations on her own though 4/10 times she thinks i'm someone else, which is hard for me but at least it doesn't seem like she on the direct path to dying.
It wasn't until this whole ordeal with my grandma that i realized that I'm fine with death, the person is already dead and its done so there is comfort in it in a weird way but the process of dying i just cant deal with the someone you love just lying there and there is nothing you can do to help.
On top of all this my grandma is still in the hospital. After scaring all the doctors and them scaring the family with a we give her hours maybe days to live. Shes still out of it but i swing by every day after work and shes starting to start conversations on her own though 4/10 times she thinks i'm someone else, which is hard for me but at least it doesn't seem like she on the direct path to dying.
It wasn't until this whole ordeal with my grandma that i realized that I'm fine with death, the person is already dead and its done so there is comfort in it in a weird way but the process of dying i just cant deal with the someone you love just lying there and there is nothing you can do to help.
spikebez666:
Sorry about these bad times but it sounds like you have a good head on your shoulders. Take care of yourself
hera:
Hang in there! Sounds like you have a good perspective on things.