jora

8/29/2005

I am going crazy. Sometimes things that have nothing to do with me drive into a state of madness.

For instance, I can never find information about the San Jose Poetry scene. Sure, there is a website, but its never, never updated. And Anthony was kind enough to create a group, but even that is a bit bare. I just think that if the information were available, there would be more exposure. Poets would be able to find the venues and events more easily, and thus attend them and feel more involved. With such a great community out there, why is it that no one can update the Aural Traditions calendar? The SJ Monday night events arent even listed on it. Plus, I have been dying to know what happened at Nationals, but that site is pretty bare too, as far as results. If it werent for Anthonys posts, I would never know whats going on.

I feel that our local site should post some info. Like how did SJ do? Where did they place? What were the scores? How about some pics? Maybe I just dont know where to look for all of this because the website doesnt tell me where to look. The Palo Alto and Berkeley websites are a little behind, but that is because of Nationals, I would think, but otherwise there is a ton of info on them. The San Jose site has been in the state its in for quite sometime.

Please dont think I am picking on you, Aural Traditions. I just love you and want you to be wonderful. I want people to go see you and find out current information and a complete calendar, so people can come out and participate and enjoy the events like I have. We have such a great team, but could use some help on the administrative skills. I know there are a few of you who may read this little rant, but please take it as I intend it with love and longing for the best community of poets we can have.

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9/2/2005

I meant to update my journal sooner, but today has been quite an eventful day. My car has been in the shop for a week and today I got to pick her up. It cost me a bundle, but she is all better. To celebrate, Brian and I went out to ice cream and a movie. I actually went to Coldstone Creamery for the first time ever and oh my, I have never tasted anything so sweet and creamy in my life! My tongue was in Taste Bud Heaven.

Then we went to the movie. I picked The Brothers Grimm. I love fantasy and it looked like it was going to be a fun film. I am very sad to say that it kindawell, sucked. It was very pretty to look at, but what the heck was going on with the script? It was all over the place. Anyone with an accent (there was French and Italian) was barely understandable and the CGI was extremely lacking. Let me just saytry not to laugh out loud (in a bad way) when the Mud Monster appears. I thought I was going to die because it was so ridiculous.

Oh, and apparently the director or whomever had no regard for portraying the hurting of animals. I know sometimes things happen in movies and its all regulated and such. That I can deal with, even though I dont like seeing any animal hurt. But this!!! It was in such poor taste that I actually said Ewwww! very loudly a few times (and I am not one to talk in the theater).

Matt and Heath tried like hell to act, but it was painful to watch. Sothis girl gives it a thumbs down. Save your money and if you really need to see it, wait to see it on cable.

Its getting late again and it seems that this entry turned into a movie review. Sorry about that, but it had to be said. You have been warned. *grin*

Time for me to make my own movie in dreamland.

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9/4/2005

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As Brian mentioned in his journal, I recently watched What the Bleep Do We Know? It changed the way I think of my whole life and reinforced some things that I already believed. On top of that, Brian bought I Heart Huckabees, which is an extension (and exploration) of the theories of Bleep. I am amazed. What amazes me more is that I still feel different inside. I tend to research a lot of different things (random knowledge is my friend) and while most things invade my being immediately, for the most part they fade into the back of my mind in a matter of hours. Not this, and I am happy about that. I have always been very excited about Quantum Theory and now, I am bursting with a kind of hopefulness and peacefulness that I havent felt in years.

And again, as mentioned in Brians journal, we watched Sin City last night. Wow! It was gorgeous and WAS the graphic novel come to life. I have a thing for 50s noir and it was very much like that. I wasnt sure what to expect because the previews of it that I had seen in the past were like nothing I had seen before. I loved it and enjoyed myself immensely.

I love that Brian and I get the same things. We both love to explore life and that makes being with him so fulfilling. Even though sometimes we dont agree, we always give things a chance.

In light of my new perceptions about my life, I plan to check out Eastern spirituality from a more structured view. I have never been one for organized religion in any sense. My beliefs are sort of a mix of Druid, American Indian (Earth), New Age, and Buddhism, but I want to dig deeper. I miss feeling filled spiritually, and I think it has affected my everyday life a lot more than I thought.

I cant wait to go to poetry tomorrow night. I have missed it. It will be cool if Brian gets up there. I still dont feel ready to do so, but at least now I feel like its a doable thing. Maybe I should look at some things Ive written and see if anything jumps out at me. I have never done any of my stuff as slam or spoken word. I am new to even reading it aloud in general. Its hard to let go of such personal thoughts and let them fall where they may on the ears and in the hearts of others. But perhaps with the doing of it, all of my fear and nervousness will melt away. Isnt that the way it is with everything in life?

I best get back to making my living space morelivable.

Ta.

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Three old guys are out walking.
First one says, "Windy, isn't it?"
Second one says, "No, it's Thursday!"
Third one says, "So am I. Let's go get a beer."