I'm feeling a bit down today. The bad self-image thing is in full force. The apartment is still a mess (although I've been trying to clean it here and there), my mother has the next 11 days off and has planned LOADS of fun events for she and I to do together and I am still unemployed.
I feel like I have no purpose. All I want to do is sleep (because at least my dreams are entertaining).
The only thing I have to look forward to is Brian's birthday (Dec. 5th!!!). I have a few fun things planned and it makes me smile when he is happy.
As for my own birthday, I am just going to pretend that it's not happening. I don't feel almost 34, don't look almost 34, so why should I be almost 34? I wasted a 11 years of my life in a drug/alcohol induced haze, so I feel like I am only about 22/23 years old. Even though I sometimes feel like I'm 82 years old too... so confusing.
I feel like I have no purpose. All I want to do is sleep (because at least my dreams are entertaining).
The only thing I have to look forward to is Brian's birthday (Dec. 5th!!!). I have a few fun things planned and it makes me smile when he is happy.
As for my own birthday, I am just going to pretend that it's not happening. I don't feel almost 34, don't look almost 34, so why should I be almost 34? I wasted a 11 years of my life in a drug/alcohol induced haze, so I feel like I am only about 22/23 years old. Even though I sometimes feel like I'm 82 years old too... so confusing.
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Miss you and I will reply to your email soon, I'm so slow!
I'm going with red for my hair...with funky chunks