SoI guess Im not as depressed as I was a few days ago, but Im not super thrilled either.
I cant believe it, but my mother is in denial about my refusing the new truck. She called me last night and said that we had to go to the dealerships because she saw a commercial that its Ford Truck Month. If shes trying to wear me down, its not going to work. Im one of the most stubborn people in the world. I am just going to do all the stuff to my current truck that I wanted to do and go into my own denial that she keeps bringing it up. Ive said no four different times as nicely as I can. I dont want to fight with her and have it get angry, but what am I supposed to do? Its starting to stress me out.
My new obsession is swimming. When Im not able to do it, I become agitated. Thats weird.
In general, I feel like Im a really uninteresting person. I believe that we are mostly defined by what we think, do and believe, and when I examine those things, I realize how damn boring I am. At this rate, when I die, there will be two people at my funeral, and only because Ive known them since we were little. What would people say about my character? What have I done thats worthwhile? Who have I touched in this world? Its almost enough to make me depressed again.
So, thats it. Goodnight.
I cant believe it, but my mother is in denial about my refusing the new truck. She called me last night and said that we had to go to the dealerships because she saw a commercial that its Ford Truck Month. If shes trying to wear me down, its not going to work. Im one of the most stubborn people in the world. I am just going to do all the stuff to my current truck that I wanted to do and go into my own denial that she keeps bringing it up. Ive said no four different times as nicely as I can. I dont want to fight with her and have it get angry, but what am I supposed to do? Its starting to stress me out.
My new obsession is swimming. When Im not able to do it, I become agitated. Thats weird.
In general, I feel like Im a really uninteresting person. I believe that we are mostly defined by what we think, do and believe, and when I examine those things, I realize how damn boring I am. At this rate, when I die, there will be two people at my funeral, and only because Ive known them since we were little. What would people say about my character? What have I done thats worthwhile? Who have I touched in this world? Its almost enough to make me depressed again.
So, thats it. Goodnight.
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your character is your own, it may take you to dark places sometimes, but pain sometimes gives us our own unique scars. it seperates us. one thing you can be sure of, is that we become interesting in this way. even if we don't always appreciate it. goodnight.