jora

All I can say is "ugh" about what your work situation.

I have to agree that moving does suck. My goal to be able to afford paying some people to show up and pick up my stuff and move it. I don't really mind putting it in boxes but hauling it out to the tuck sucks in a not fun way.

Take care,
Rodney

i love voice mail/answering machines. They make avoiding people super easy. hehehe. I'm sure you'll make it through your work days (they will probably go even faster than normal).
and you for sure need to be talking to your apartment manager about no rent increase. I mean damn, there are open apartments all over the place. If they don't budge then find a new (cheaper) place.

i swear i live for vacations days. probably becasue vacation is the only time i DO live (not at work for sure).
And dont worry, the meds will play games with you for a while until you each adjust to each other. I hear you with the needing to save money but your rent is going up? What part of SJ do you live in? you know SJ has rent hike laws that dont allow a landlord to raise it more than 6% (i think) in a year. I'd check into that.

please feel better soon

so hard to let go of rage sometimes when it isn't clear where it comes from. I know.

but the world looks different in our eyes when we feel that way. and the world will look better again soon

here are a random selection of 10 older/cheaper horror movies to consider renting, I'll try to list overlooked stuff but not too rare so you may find them at typical video rental places:

TEN RANDOM HORROR MOVIES WORTH WATCHING
john carpenter's prince of darkness
john carpenter's the thing
john carpenter's in the mouth of madness
pitch black
alien 1
lifeforce
hellraiser bloodlines
deep blue sea
blade 1
videodrome

Few! I was getting so worried about you. Glad to see you checking in. Hope the mood changes for the better soon. Been there too!

I know forgetting my meds is really bad. My work schedule last week threw me out of wack.

I have never found a good way out of the rages. Exercise might help but you just might have to wait until it passes.

Taco and I are doing well thanks for asking. Hope you and your kitties are doing the same.

"whore is Jora?"

Hey girl,

Just passing through and wanted to say hello. How are you? Are you still around and about? I finally have a picture of my tattoo up and just celebrated my 30th birthday. Had a great time.

Hope you're well and all that good stuff.

Take care of you sweets.

xo

Do you ever feel alone even when surrounded by a bunch of people? I know I do sometimes. I hate that feeling. Baby steps is the best way to go about going out in the real world. Hope you had a good day. Btw, I'll post pics of my tattoo soon, when it's healed. *hugs*

*edits because I can't type for sh-t*

[Edited on Jul 22, 2003]

[Edited on Jul 22, 2003]

B+, that's great! I'm not much of an A student myself. I'm happy with B's and stuff. Yah, girls are way softer. Actually I'm pretty soft these days *pokes stomach*. I need to start working out! Too bad it usually brings on anxiety attacks! Anyway, hope all is good! Later, Ryan-

Yes! Today was tattoo day for me! I got some work done on my inner arm. Just a small one though. My cat was walking around in circles this morning talking way too much while I was trying to sleep. Aaaaarrrgh! Oh well I still love her though. Have a good one! Ryan-

Thanks for the ego stroke. Hope you keep working at want you have to do and get to a better place. I had a lot of the same feelings with my Dad and was suprised to find out that he didn't know how bad it was since they were seperated when things were really bad.

what a silly kitty.

Rodney

james, you have disappeared! Are you still on here? If so, email me at jora33@aol.com

I was happy to hear back from you and now I can't access your profile. Please contact me.

jora33

Did you survive the work week? Hope so! Oh yah, I figured out why I asked about Canada! I just got done sending sg "flick" a message and she lives in the north. My bad! Have a good one. Ryan-

Thanks for the words of encouragement yesterday. Feeling really drained today.

Just remembered, I think my favorite Reese Witherspoon movie is Pleasantville.

drama can suck for sure.
so can hospitals. ( i avoid em like th plague)(though if i had the plague I guess I'd have to go there).
I think writing can be one of the BEST things you could do. It opens your mind, body and soul. write away girlie, write away!
Take a relaxing bath tonight and YOU have a lovely day!

The rule for donating blood and body mods it that you can't give blood for a year after you have any piercing or tattoos.

I think everyone wants a pretty girl to bush their hair and make them tea. Except me since my hair is so short at the moment it doesn't need to be brushed. Hell, brushing someone elses hair right now sounds like ti would be very relaxing.

Busy work weeks can totally suck. But when your going through "things" it can actually bea good and quick week. There's nothing like keeping the mind occupied on other thigns to make one feel better. By the way, when you find the tea makin pretty girl; send her my way.
oh, and when you have that SG photo shoot at your pad I need to be there. hehehe

Hey! I really like your new tattoo! By the way, when I view your pics they're not blury at all.

Good luck with designing your new tattoos. Based on the two I've seen, I'm sure they'll be really cool.

Anyway, take care!! Be good to yourself!!

-Dakota
(Michael)

OK I put a bunch of photos in "my pics", most are older and not close-up but I don't really have any good recent ones. Maybe I'll take my camera with me tonight and get some snaps to upload for yah. Oh yah, I would come over and distract you but I don't think Oregon is that close to Canada. By the way, which area of the country are you in? Later, Ryan-

I hope it goes well at the doctor today. It could be that your dosage isn't high enough. It's not all that uncommon to have something like this happen.

It is stressfull to go an spend time with someone new. I don't really have any other choices right now though since I don't have many friends in the LA area.

I'll look at bird feeders this weekend.

peep peep peep

Schlep

Yah, I think it means how many responses to your journal have posted. Hope the anxiety symptoms calm soon. Don't you just wish you could take your brain out and replace it with a new one once in a while. i know I do. Or at least plug in some kind of program that fixes it from freaking out and feeling down. Who knows. Hope your weekend is much better. Later, Ryan-

28 day has some wonderful creepy moments in it. I am thinking of seeing it againbecause I have a feeling that I am missed something important.

Taco seemed interrested when I told her she was getting a bird feeder but that could have just been the cinnamon of my breath from the mint I just had.

I know I don't know you but I understand what your going through right now. I live it every day.
amazing dreams rule.
seriously.