jora

oh no.. i hope those kids weren't there... hha

Good for you, if you ever go again and they're there, just pull your gat out of your bathing suit. Oh, THIS is a poo-dog. I guess there is a reason hotdogs aren't made out of ground beef, 7-11 should learn from this mistake.<

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Swiming is very relaxing. It's great for the mind. I hope that, somehow you will still go, because you seem to take pleasure in it so much. You shouldn't have to stop doing an activity because some parents can't handle their kids in public, ya know?

Something similar happened to me last week at the air show. There was many many people.... me and my man were sitting in the grass, waiting for the planes to take off... some kid was standing up besides me and kept hitting my ass with his foot. The first few times, I let it pass....but after a while damn, I had to tell him to back off politely but I was very direct.... he was hurting me and annoying me. His dad was with him and he NEVER said a word to his kid. What do these adults teach their kids? Not alot. Respect surely isn't one of them.

Anyhow, I hope you have a good weekend. Anything planned?

::sending lots of hugs your way:::

It was nice talkign to you last nice. Man, am I still sleepy.

I guess I could get up really early and go to the pool. I always feel like I look like Ron Jeremy even though I know I really don't. I have a hard time floating since I tend to sink to the bottom but that might not be the case now since I have put on weight. Damn my sweet tooth and eating to make myself feel better.

Everydso often I end up staying up overnight for work but am not very good at it and I don't think I ever have been. You have to be careful doing it well because going without sleep for too long can cause permanent changes in your brain chemistry.

Today I am going to look at dispoable camera where I can get a cd of digital images. I can at least end up with pictures of Taco.

your poetry is very deep, as always.
dear Jora.

congrats on the swimming good times, take everything you find that you can enjoy and go for it! very sorry to read about the past history with your father, but as you're talking about it now it shows it is losing its power over you. In Zen they say, the past exists only in our memories, and the future is just an illusion. Live in the now, if you find the right things every present moment can offer you happiness.

release the fears.
and of course, keep up the hot tubbing. hehe


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what the heck is a pluot?
its sounds strangley yummy (whatever it is).
i love swimming.

Thank you for the nice words Jora. I am sorry to hear you lost your babies too, it's so hard to move on It's truly like losing a brother or sister or child. My heart still hurts...and I'm trying to tell myself that he led a good life.....18 yrs...it's a long life for a cat. But it doesn't stop me from hurting.
and to you, you have a good heart.

Oh the up late, nap off and on all day deal, I know it all too well. I've actualy been getting out of that routine but I hope I can keep it going with the oncoming grey months.

napping twice in one day inbetween finishing a good novel sounds like infinite comfort to me right now, for some reason... perhaps it is because I don't recall having napped at all in at least the last 5 years...

thinking about it now, a few brief daysleeps could be exactly what I've needed... I am right in the middle of a good novel right now too, so it makes me want to try that "two naps and a book" day

sorry that your sleep cycle is messed up though Have you tried hot steamed milk? (good short-term serotonin boost and also good for insomnia)



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I keep sleepin and sleeping the last few days and I didn't get anything done either. I am taking advantage of being able to sleep, because some nights are just sleepless and then I feel bad for days.

Hope you got some rest sweetie. Take care of you and enjoy the rest of the long weekend.

I read what you wrote to Rae. Those things really suck in a not good way. Makes want to kick their ass or leave sweaty butt prints on their car. grrr.

Hope you are having a good day.

hey sweetie,

Why would you need to apologize to anyone and even to an actor for giving an *honest* and straight out review? There is nothing wrong with that, and it will force them to ammeliorate(sp) it for the next time. It's your opinion and not everyone likes the same movies and not everyone thinks that this or that actor is good, etc. You shouldn't have to feel bad.

How is your weekend going so far, besides that? It's been a while since we've exchanged messages, so I just wanted to say hello and send you some hugs

Take care!
- Lou

Okay. Now I want to know what movie and actor you were writing about.

I know what causes my to stay up so late when I have days off. It's taking 5 hour naps duyring the middle of the day.

IT makes me happy everytime I see you in my comment box.

I did that yesterday morning. Closed the browser before submitting my comment.

Thanks. It's nice to be thought of. Hope you enjoy your time off and your weekend. Taco says high and sends you lots of purrs.

I hope you get to catch up on your sleep during the long weekend. I've had a few sleepless nights this week. I was feeling like a zombie. The getting up early I hate, it makes me grumpy. I wish I could sleep 12 hrs everyday.
The coffee probably doesn't help when you go to bed at night....your body is wired and hyper. I've learned that the hard way. Now I drink more decaf than anything else. it doesn't keep me awake.

Hope you enjoy the rest of your day.

ohh the dreaded slow brewing coffee pot.
semi-sleepless nights are almost worse than completely sleepless night. hang in for the long weekend!

yeah you can read the story starting with this entry and the next few after that: http://suicidegirls.com/members/Dave_H/127298/

Hey J, thanks for all your help getting me in tune to SG - I am glad you are feeling better - your last journal left me speechless, being a newbie i didn't know what to say to make u feel better.

take care

Hey girl, you can add me to the list of people that truly care! I undrstand your pain more than I would like to admit. All I have to do is read some of my personal journals from a few years past. It gives me chills just thinking about them and that point in my life. I will say that the last two weeks have been the happiest for me in years! I hope it stays this way and keeps getting better, because I so deserve it. My twenties can just kiss my ass! Thirty is coming soon and I hope they treat me a lot better. With the days begining to get shorter and the gray days coming I know the clouds in my mind will be sure to fallow. If I can get myself to focus on the green of the trees and snow in the mountains instead of the dark skies mabey I can feel better this fall and winter. By the way have you thought about trying other meds? I went through a couple before settling on something that sort of works. I could use a change too. Anyway, take care and check ya later. Ryan-

firstly, internet chats are a big no-no when feeling needy. they are bad at the best of times. so often a waste of words and time for all concerned. slower tech like forums and journals are far better, as they allow real thought behind the words from those you are sharing time with.

an even better use of your time though might be to try seeking dramatic new information. if you have one of those combined Borders cafe/bookstores near you, think about dedicating 2-3 hours of your time there. coffee, tea, philosophy, history, spirituality, etc. deadly serious books still full of uncensored ideas and all still at your fingertips for the time being. sounds like you could use a new injection of ideas. new ideas add "spark" to life like nothing else. we all could use some spark from time to time.

all up I've had a hell of a week too, hopefully fortune will smile again on both of us soon... until then, well at least we have the darkness.