life has changed so much for me. i have discussed it here recently. i just had no idea it would affect my demeanor. it really hasnt changed so much im just not as open as before. more closed and i dont like it. it would be easy to just open up. i just really want to talk about her. shes all my life. my life changed because of her and i chose to change to make it better for her. dont regret the change just miss her lots when she isnt in my proximinty. i am resolute in the direction i chose. i will get there. for her.