jonnymarg

Ha. So it's been awhile, huh?

Ummm... welll... we're kinda sorta dating... ummm... I guess I'm just checking to make sure things are really real before going in full steam ahead. Which is hard. Cuz i LOVE this girl. She's everything i've ever wanted in a girlfriend: she's smart, gorgeous, into all the same things i am, she has the same bizarre sense of humor i do, did i mention she's gorgeous? She makes my insides do happy little backflips Hm. I just worry that I don't do the same to her. But I also have a chronic case of the self doubts, soooo... yeah... dunno...

she's perfect... except for this weird habit of like... being really REALLY hard to get ahold of sometimes... which sucks... 'cuz we're both busy people, so finding timeto hang out is hard ... and its even harder when you can't get ahold of her... raaaarg. It happened all the time when we usedta date. And while she's not near as bad now... she still scares me sometimes... i get this sneaking suspicion i'm being ignored... y'know? I mean... if my cell rings and its her calling, woe be to the person standing between me and answering the phone... and it just doesn't seem like she's that way back, y'know? I could easily say she's the number one person in the whole world i'd like to hang out with at any given moment... and at times... i wonder whether she feels the same way as me or not...bleh... maybe i just want attention... maybe i just want her all to myself... i dunno... maybe i needta just stop being a whiney bitch.

My birthday is a week from tomorra'. yay me.