jonnybleugenes

i have been thinking about this, and would like to share it with the group:

i'm "that guy". the guy who your girlfriend cheats with. It's not that i want to be "that guy", it just happens that way. ever since my first sexual experience. then the second, third, fourth, fifth and the worst was the sixth. she was married.

when i was coming of age, i never said to myself, "hey i want to grow up to be a homewrecker". i don't feel guilty about it though. i never tricked or took advantage of anyone. i just happened to be in the right place at the wrong time. and not gonna lie, it gives my ego a nice boost to think that my sexuality is stong enough to lure even the most faithful and devoted woman, from her man. and i guess in some ways this is me getting back at all the bone-headed alpha
males that tormented me during those awkward teen years.

it can be a lonely existence though. i've only ever had one lasting relationship (the 7th girl). we were together 8 months... then she cheated on me. go figure. we weren't meant to be together anyways. i've accepted the fact that for now i AM "that guy" and though i hope one day to find "that girl" who is right for me, i have to live with this.

it all boils down to my philosophies in love. i refuse to control or own a woman in any way. she is free do do as she pleases without my displeasure or unwanted criticism. though if a girl were to be with me in an exclusive relationship, she must be exclusive. that is all i ask. i have never cheated on a girlfriend, nor will i ever.

the perfect relationship for me is when i can live my life in parallel with a woman's life, where we can be exclusive sexually yet respect each others place in the world and not make a mockery of love by cathecting one another.

my reason for posting this is that the next affair is creeping up. there were those familiar sparks in the beginning, and a definite mutual attraction. the ol' "TV eye". she made it aware that she had a boyfriend, and i immediatly backed off, yet she did not. her advances have continued and i have welcomed the invitation. the next step is imminent.

i have no doubt that the affair will end as they all do. she will go back to her man, or move on to something different. but she will take with her a new found feeling of confidence and self-worth. i am not claiming to be some kind of cassanova or any of that bullshit. i just have a profound respect for life and nature and especially women. if there was ever a bastard child of Jesus and Lilith, i am he.

here is my warning, it could be your girlfriend. don't hate me. i'm not responsable for this. i don't go around looking for "involved" girls to fuck. and i never get in the middle of a relationship of guys i know or have even met before. i ESPECIALLY don't even flirt with the companions of my friends or relatives.

i dont want to know him. i need to create a fantasy image of the boyfriend as being some evil obsessive controlling bastard. i guess that means i have a bit of a hero complex or something. but usually the reason these women cheat, is because they desire freedom, and someone who makes them feel good about themselves.

respect your lover and make sure she knows how much you appreciate the fact that she's with your lame ass and you won't have to worry about "that guy".

the end.