I lied. I said on my last post I would update more. This has not been the case. I am doing so now in the attempt to make a habit of it but I will make these baby steps in the right direction.
What have I done lately? Hmmm.... well I would say I have done alot of nothing. Now don't get me wrong. I have enjoyed what this vague description of my actions alludes to but not much stands out above the rest.
Of the more notable actions, I have been doing a better job on doing some reconnecting with some old aquaintances. I've also been trying to mix things up a bit more by going to new bars, restaurants, and hang out locations. I can tell you that if this is something you've not done in a while then you need to do so now. There are alot of really good places that you pass by every day but never go to just because it's out of routine. And damn it if I haven't found some good places around town.
I've also been getting this itch. No, not the kind you apply salve and ointment to but the kind the builds inside you. The one that tells you that you need to go. Do. Travel. Experience. Live. It's a wonderful and daunting feeling. And it's a feeling that I don't know how long I can contain before I do something stupid and impulsive. So I will see what strikes me and make plans for when it does. This is assuming that this happens before the urge takes over. lol.
I've also gotten a boost in my appreciation for movies, music, TV and art. I can't really say where that came from either. I went from watching a movie or 2 a week to about 5 to 8. I've been listening to a few new bands all the way from Jon Justice Band to Amon Amarth.
Just looking at what I've written so far it's painstakingly obvious. I want to consume. Consume experiences and everything I can. It's strange though. Is it possible to be happy in life but discontent at the same time? Or is it because I am happy that I want to experience more?
And another thing popped into thought. I've been single for some time now and have had a strong desire to be with someone. To share my life and love with my other. Recently, this desire has been dulling. It has become from what was once a co-pilot in my head to a Post-it note on the dash. Sort of like being on the grocery list between the Pop-tarts and the Doritos. I do wonder, though, if this is part of where the other feeling is popping up from. Who knows?
I hate to say it but this is probably the most introspective I've been while sober in a long time. I wouldn't mind it more often, honestly.
What have I done lately? Hmmm.... well I would say I have done alot of nothing. Now don't get me wrong. I have enjoyed what this vague description of my actions alludes to but not much stands out above the rest.
Of the more notable actions, I have been doing a better job on doing some reconnecting with some old aquaintances. I've also been trying to mix things up a bit more by going to new bars, restaurants, and hang out locations. I can tell you that if this is something you've not done in a while then you need to do so now. There are alot of really good places that you pass by every day but never go to just because it's out of routine. And damn it if I haven't found some good places around town.
I've also been getting this itch. No, not the kind you apply salve and ointment to but the kind the builds inside you. The one that tells you that you need to go. Do. Travel. Experience. Live. It's a wonderful and daunting feeling. And it's a feeling that I don't know how long I can contain before I do something stupid and impulsive. So I will see what strikes me and make plans for when it does. This is assuming that this happens before the urge takes over. lol.
I've also gotten a boost in my appreciation for movies, music, TV and art. I can't really say where that came from either. I went from watching a movie or 2 a week to about 5 to 8. I've been listening to a few new bands all the way from Jon Justice Band to Amon Amarth.
Just looking at what I've written so far it's painstakingly obvious. I want to consume. Consume experiences and everything I can. It's strange though. Is it possible to be happy in life but discontent at the same time? Or is it because I am happy that I want to experience more?
And another thing popped into thought. I've been single for some time now and have had a strong desire to be with someone. To share my life and love with my other. Recently, this desire has been dulling. It has become from what was once a co-pilot in my head to a Post-it note on the dash. Sort of like being on the grocery list between the Pop-tarts and the Doritos. I do wonder, though, if this is part of where the other feeling is popping up from. Who knows?
I hate to say it but this is probably the most introspective I've been while sober in a long time. I wouldn't mind it more often, honestly.
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tikki:
BULLSHIT!