Tuesday May 29, 2007

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5/6 exams done. I'm now officially brain dead and I have so much to do this week I can't even begin to get things sorted. I'm off to America on June 11th and I'm much confused. Exams didn't go as well as I needed and I'm gonna have to come back early which sucks, also going to cost me money and cause even more stress. Ijust don't know, I'm losing faith in some of its worth,this was meant to be a pleasent summer away and now its just turning into alot of stress, which of late I don't handle very well. Serioudly thinking of taking a year out of uni and re-evaluating everything, get the feeling I'm less likely to come back to uni if I do...worst of all the few people I'm close to don't seem to really wanna talk to me anymore, argh. Hmm will just have to strive on.
cptpyjama:
Hopefully doing nothing all week, that's always good biggrin Also I can't afford to go out doing stuff.

It's a shame your exams didn't go so well. Do you know they went badly or do you just think they did? Maybe it's not as bad as you think. And even if it is things usually work out all right.
cptpyjama:
To sum up in the shortest possible way, I'll explain with bullet points.
-when I was thirteen and Martin was fifteen I met him on the internet, for a year he was my net boyfriend
-broke up with Martin, got together again online with a guy he knew from school, Marc
-long distance with Marc until I was eighteen and went to uni where I could see him everyday
-Marc insists on making me meet Martin in real life. Martin is soooo nice to me.
-few weeks later I'm ill and Martin comes round to cheer me up; we talk for about two hours.
-several months and I'm home for Christmas. I'm babysitting, bored, and Martin texts about meeting up when I get back, one thing leads to another and we ended up having (really good) cyber sex at four o'clock in the morning. I didn't even know I fancied him until then! We carry on flirting and arrange to go on a real date when I get back.
-the date happens but no action (we're both shy) and then he decides that because I've got a boyfriend, he doesn't want to be involved, but we're going to carry on being friends and seeing each other all the time.

So, basically, no matter how much I want him, I can't have him because oh, I've got one boyfriend already whatever

Sorry that took ages but I couldn't think of an easy way to answer tongue

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