If I could change one thing from my past, it would be having sex for the 1st time and 14 and having it be with an older guy I met online. I believe this situation played a huge role in my development especially when it comes to relationships.
This guy was 10years to older then me and always told me he was my boyfriend. The only issue (other the age) was that we’d only see each other on his terms and it was only for sex. He wouldn’t see me unless he got something sexual out of it. Anytime we’d get in a fight or I couldn’t see him when he wanted he would threaten suicide.
I don’t remember how I got out of the situation but I’ve found myself in many similar ones. I recall even doing it myself at some point.
I can’t really say if this would change any outcomes in my life I just wish I’d known what I know now and actually had a middle/high school love life instead of spending all my time online talking to older guys