joleigh

selfishness holds no bounds
in their entirety
and they had a chance to speak up
reach out
and it just passed
day by day
by day by day

and she went to a haze
numb
succumbed
submissive even
then
out of no where
that spark
caused realization
that 25 others can't be wrong

chance after chance
play after play
and things this serious shouldn't be put into games
so it her fault and his
the way they ended up like this





Today in the shower.... once again scrubbing layers of grease, food, beer, and whatever else off
I don't think anything will be enough
and that scares me
gluttony of the more more and more
that I shouldn't have to do....
and why didn't they do
and why didn't she try

and well then in this case "THEY MUST BE LYING"
paranoia
or is just that everyone tends to suck so bad

I tell myself every day today is going to be amazing and nothing can stop me
and feel invincible
living a double life
everything there is okay and I am great on top of it, doing everything right and then some...
but when its time to clock out
all I can think of is how much everything is wrong....
maybe I should work more