I fucked up agian, did something I said I wouldnt do agian, I have to be the master of back sliding relapsing . whatever you call it, I just cant seem to stop, cant say no, it seems to be alot harder to actualy not do something than to just say no, saying no or the just say no slogan is bullshit because it pretty much fucking imposable, when it comes to puting that into action so i guess I will have to say yes. I hate doing this shit to myself, I dont know why I keep doing it the only thing I can figure out is that I have a bug fucking problem.