johnnyu

No jokes today..... no funny endings... no tricking u at the end..... just sadness... struggling, Friday, 1/16, marked the anniversary of the death of my little brother.... who idolized me.... i miss him... family was never right after his death.... try to cover it up with humor but can't today.... sorry....

Slowly but surely... I feel myself becoming numb to things I used to be so sensitive too.. I dont feel like myself.. I feel like my sanity is dropping and is slowly turning into insanity.. I feel blank sometimes... I feel like ive been robbed of my emotions... at least certain ones... I do not have anger... and my mind feels like its starting to block my sadness.. I feel like im an animal just let out of its cage... I feel like feeling pain... I want things ive never wanted before... I hate things I used to like, My sanity is giving up..I mean.. it could be temporary! hopefully.. Im going to try and bring myself back to sanity.... peace.... become the jokester again, the smart ass.... the one with flippant comments.... just don't feel like it..... today... even the angels r sad!