johnnyrev99

Today was such a weird day. I went out with this girl last night for the first time and we ended up in bed together. I felt absolutely awful about it this morning as did she. I haven't had a one night stand in a while and I don't plan on it either. I still feel really terrible about it. I mean the sex was just so empty. I can't do it anymore without feeling guilty. So we had way too much liquor and pot (something which I rarely ever do anymore) and one thing led to another. I can't keep lying to myself....I am not happy with playing the field anymore....I can't wait to meet a girl that I absolutely adore and adores me. So I am going to sleep now....hopefully tomorrow is a better day. See ya!