Well, today just sucks. And the worst part is, it started out fine. I was at Jim and Jenelle's and having fun. They gave me one of their cats. Its name is Cow. This afternoon I started feeliong sick. But I had to work so I got dressed and drove thru rush hour traffic to get there. When I got there, the Sous Chef told me the pool party I was supposed to do was cancelled and to just go home. So I drove back into ruch hour traffic and went home. I like the hotel job and all but they said the were hiring me for full time work and I'm not even getting close to that right now. I thought I was going to get a paycheck tomorrow but as it turns out, I won't be getting one until June 25. I have $7 in my wallet right now! What the fuck am I supposed to do? I'm not getting enough hours to pay any of my bills and I am stressed out and miserable and nothing is ever going to go my way. How can I give a fuck when everything I do and every choice I make ends up making me depressed and stressed out and miserable? And on top of all that, I get home from not working and I can't find Cow. I've looked everywhere for her and she is nowhere to be found. I hate life right now. What I need most is someone to come hang with me and watch a movie or play scrabble or playstation or something. I just need some company.
