johnnyd_ranged

Fuck am I ever dissapointed.
And the source of my dissapoint is fabric.. fuckin fabric. How can that be the one thing preventing me from doing my project? That was step one of the actualization of one month of intense thought. It was supposed to be the easiest step, and I was willing to spend $200 on fucking fabric just to spend many many more hours developing, putting together and presenting this massive installation for a mere 12 people. Sure it was going to cost me a ridiculous amount of money and time in the end, but it was a part of myself, and now it's dead because no store in regina has 80 meters of black fabric. I don't have the time to order anything in, so I'm gonna hafta scrap a project idea that had me more excited than anything I've ever done, something that felt like a huge chunk of myself, and start from scratch. Well maybe one day I'll be able to pull out these plans again and do a better job at them.. but for now I just feel like shit. And on top of that, while searching for this bull shit, I missed out on my trip to go see lynnailove, and now i gotta just wallow over here and think on what to do next