johnny_crotchrot

Making a decision can be hard at times. I had to make one today. Well I actually made it a few weeks back, but swallowed my pride and made the call today. Anyone who has talked to me knows that I am currently serving in the Marine Reserves and had ambitions to become an officer upon my graduation. I was originaly very motivated about going to OCS to become an officer but lately I have had a change of heart. The reasons are simple...I want to get on with my life after my time is up in the reserves. Now don't get me wrong, I like the corp and thankful that I went in. Boot camp did wonders for me. Someday I might decide to settle down and maybe even start a family (big fuckin maybe there). I dont linke the thought of belonging to the corp first and family second. Anyways, back to the issue at hand. I finally decided to say fuck it today and call my officer recruiters. This was pretty damn hard for me because if I say I'm going to do something I usually do it. Had to draw the line before I got too involved to back out. Talked to the Lt. in charge of the officer recruitment program that I'm going through, PLC, and told him that I would rather wait until I got out of college before deciding to go to OCS. He told me that he could relate to me, that he was once a reservist like myself going through the same program. He said that there were many times that he thought about backing out too. Even though I have already made up my mind, I told him that I would think it over for a couple of days before I give him a definite answer. He wants me to think it over because it will be next to impossible to get accepted into the program again should I change my mind in the future.

I kind of feel bad about changing my mind at the last minute. All my paperwork was done and my package has already arrived to Paris Island for a board meeting that will decide which candidates will get the chance to attend OCS. He had to bust his ass for my tattoo waiver. It's hard to get those because tattoos on officers are frowned upon.

Talked to my mom about it some. She thinks I should go through the first session of OCS, that I might change my opinion. I doubt I will though. Going through OCS would keep me from attending classes during two of my summers in college, and as I mentioned above, I want to get on with my life after the reserves. I want to get the hell out of the south for a while and not come back until I'm an old man. That's all for that shit now. Once again, it sucks having to make important decisions. On to other things.

Thinking about moving out of the house in the fall. I'm not really saving any money living at home. Waisting most of it. I figure that waisting money on an apartment would probably be better for me. Trying to get my friend to go in on this with me.

Watched the Drugstore video for the first time the other night. The one with Sean following Missy around with the camera. That Primitive Radio Gods song Standing Outside a Broken Phone Booth With Money in My Hand was used in the video. It had been years since I heard the song. Had it stuck in my head all weekend.

Sent in a tech. blog sample to Sean last Thursday night. Got accepted to round two. Posted five samples last night. You can check them out in the news group. Laters.