johanna

I am tired.
I am exhausted.


I think that sometimes when you know you want something in life
and you know it is the one thing that you know you love.
the one passion that you know no one can take from you
and you have to fight for it and you get cut and you get burned, but you don't
give up because then everyone that wanted you to fail has now won the fight that you lost sleep over to fight.

I am always going somewhere ha and I am sure you all know that.
I am always flying somewhere and getting up and just leaving, but it's strange
to say that besides getting tattoos and piercings, I find flying and traveling one of the most soothing things that I can do. I love to just go to the airport and know that I am leaving. I hate picking people up or taking people to the airport when I know I am not going with them. It makes me sad/jealous/nostalgic.
I don't want to be in love because I want to, but I want to be in love because I can't help it, so the fact that I just said "but, I want to" has just ruined my whole explination on love, so I destroy all my theories and sayings, but fuck it because it does make sense in my head.

I need a tattoo.
& I am flying in Oct, but I can't wait till then to heal
if I did there wouldn't be much left to save.
So tattoo time it is.