First off a little update on 'my so called life'. Finally got rid of the rabid wild dog ex-gf and my existence here although tainted is a bit more peaceful.
However, staying on here doesn't feel like an option anymore. It has grown on me in a negative way... and as with everything else that 'grows' on me there is that need to shift & escape.
I have been here for a year and a half already. But while I completely fell in love with the place during the first few months and the whole idea of moving on my own to a new state excited me, I have slowly become weary of it.
I told myself when I made the move never to second-guess the decision and I hadn't ...til recently... I have found this is all I've been doing... for the past week and a half. Now all I can think about is having to do another self evaluation - check up on finances etc. - and think about what I wanna do this year.
I have to really take control of my spending habits if I want to do the things I want to do in this life.
Recently the big blows financially have been my car accident and the maxed out credit card.
Living in a place where excess is the norm and the only thing with free access that is of any value is the beach will take your enjoyment factor and divide it by half no matter where or what you're doing.
Simply because most of the time you're thinking of the old bank account and how you could've better spent that money by not spending it.
So I have decided in order to realise my goals a few things must take place. Firstly, a savings plan.
After much soul-searching and late-night debates in front of the mirror about whether or not I can get by without eating and other seemingly superfluous everyday habits, I have reached the conclusion that basic living costs, at the very least, have to be scrutinised.
Here's my to-do list effective immediately:
+ Sell belongings I don't use or need eg. DVDs, surfboard maybe?
+ Buy less alcohol, but not cut it out completely
+ Buy less, period!
+ Forego unnecessary purchases eg. impulse items such as cds and dvds
+ Pay off debt
+ Find a flat and a job in Melbourne
+ Cannot skip without hopping so as much as like it and the people I have met through it I have to quit my current job
+ Tell flatmate that I wanna move out ==> kinda done this one already
+ Look for a secondhand van or hire rates for a van
Oh and I watched the best movie I've seen in a while last night... 'My Life As A Dog'
It was a sorta coming of age story but weird. Anyway, falling asleep soooo....
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However, staying on here doesn't feel like an option anymore. It has grown on me in a negative way... and as with everything else that 'grows' on me there is that need to shift & escape.
I have been here for a year and a half already. But while I completely fell in love with the place during the first few months and the whole idea of moving on my own to a new state excited me, I have slowly become weary of it.
I told myself when I made the move never to second-guess the decision and I hadn't ...til recently... I have found this is all I've been doing... for the past week and a half. Now all I can think about is having to do another self evaluation - check up on finances etc. - and think about what I wanna do this year.
I have to really take control of my spending habits if I want to do the things I want to do in this life.
Recently the big blows financially have been my car accident and the maxed out credit card.
Living in a place where excess is the norm and the only thing with free access that is of any value is the beach will take your enjoyment factor and divide it by half no matter where or what you're doing.
Simply because most of the time you're thinking of the old bank account and how you could've better spent that money by not spending it.
So I have decided in order to realise my goals a few things must take place. Firstly, a savings plan.
After much soul-searching and late-night debates in front of the mirror about whether or not I can get by without eating and other seemingly superfluous everyday habits, I have reached the conclusion that basic living costs, at the very least, have to be scrutinised.
Here's my to-do list effective immediately:
+ Sell belongings I don't use or need eg. DVDs, surfboard maybe?
+ Buy less alcohol, but not cut it out completely
+ Buy less, period!
+ Forego unnecessary purchases eg. impulse items such as cds and dvds
+ Pay off debt
+ Find a flat and a job in Melbourne
+ Cannot skip without hopping so as much as like it and the people I have met through it I have to quit my current job
+ Tell flatmate that I wanna move out ==> kinda done this one already
+ Look for a secondhand van or hire rates for a van
Oh and I watched the best movie I've seen in a while last night... 'My Life As A Dog'
It was a sorta coming of age story but weird. Anyway, falling asleep soooo....
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Sounds like you've had a lot of time to come to terms with things. Go in what ever direction is best for you.
p.s. "rabid wild dog ex-gf" hahaha I am going to recommend using that phrase to everyone!
Well it seems change is in the wind for a few people,things are (slowly) changing down here as well,Ian and his thai g/f plan to get married sometime in the future so i have decided to move out..eventually,im kinda over living with people and really desire my own space...i do miss it.
Financial drama is also hovering around me..well not drama but i can do a whole lot better then im doing now,the whole drink less,no more impulse buying thing rings quite true.
I also think i need a little bit of a lifestyle change,my health is suffering a little i think and i want to change that,unfortunately i am also good at apathy..everything is always "next week"..but next week never gets here.
You always have the most amazing journals mate,you have a most interesting life at times
Hmm i was only talking about Vegetarian bacon to a friend of mine yesterday..sppoooky