"If you don't like something, change it. If you can't change it, change your attitude."
Maya Angelou
It has been a while since I blogged here on the SG site so I thought I would turn over a new leaf and make it a regular thing as I have found writing quite cathartic the last few months.
Since my last post a LOT has happened, theres been bands breaking up, health scares and heartache that could fill a book, in fact there is a pile of journals on my living room floor that prove that books have been filled with these experiances and it has been one hell of a ride thus far.
Life can move at sometimes frightening speeds and a person can go from wooping and having a good time like they are surfing a big wave to screaming that they want to get off the rollercoaster in the blink of a eye. I'm glad to say there have been moments of calm between rides like these but even some of those have been because I have been sat in the eye of a storm, you never know whats coming round the corner.
Anyway, I could waffle on all cryptic like this allday and not get anywhere so I will cut to the chase.
I have come to realise that true peace comes from within, the sort that provides a strong base for all other things and for real happiness. If you go searching outside of yourself for this peace and happiness, say for instance from another person, then you are inviting a sword of damacles type scenario. What someone gives to you they can take away just as easy too, which can leave you high dry if that is what happen.
So having experianced that a couple of times in my life (and once earlier this year) I decided to make myself the centre of my own life and really concentrate on me for a change, been taking this stance for about 3 months now and so far so good - things are progressing.
I'm always finding new ways to challenge myself in my personal, social, creative and work lives, setting myself goals that I will admit I dont always achieve straight away, sometimes not at all but with these processes I am learning more about myself, more about what is important to me and finding out where I want to go as a person. That being the case I can see that I am progressing and finding the whole thing VERY rewarding in all sorts of ways, go me.
November is a mere couple of days away and I have set myself some new challenges to really squeeze the best out of that month, here is some of the things I'm going to be doing :
1. The Movember Challenge, growing facial hair for 30 days with the hope earning some money for charity in the process. I have set myself a target of 100 and so I will be pimping that like a motherfucker everywhere I can to try and get donations.
2. 30 days Abstinence from Alcohol. October has been a bit of a party month and its been nice to blow off steam but I want to give my wallet and liver a break and take a new perspective on things for a little while and so I am giving the devils water for November for shits and giggles! I have already done 30 days/nights of celibacy a few months ago and found the experiance very rewarding and so hope to learn something new from being dry for a month, we shall see!
3. I have a new fitness regime and diet I shall be starting on the 1st. I am a pretty active person and love a workout, over the summer I got really ill with flu and then a nasty bit of bronchitis and knocked my fitness level down a few pegs, I have slowly been working my way back up since then and I am ready to push things further towards my old levels of fitness this coming November, not drinking will also help with this.
4. Working on a new music project and a couple of writing projects, just getting stuff off the ground on all these creative ventures but I really want to push these things harder as I find them essential to my well being and happiness and so wish to pursue them for my own benefits as much as I can. I wont go into too much detail now though :-p
5. I'm trying to improve my performance at work, get better stats and all that brewhaha. I do procrastinate way too much when I am in the office and I really need to pull my socks up if I am going to get the kickass bonus I want this Christmas. Probably time to pull my finger out.
There are a few other things I want to achieve as well, but those are the main things, you get the idea!
In other news, I went to the MCM Expo in London yesterday for the very first time. Some of my friends were going and I was told there would be a SG stall there so I thought I would go a long.... there was no SG stall it turns out but it didnt mean I didnt have a good time. I felt I didnt get the full experiance of it though as I was'nt dressed up as some super hero or cosplay thing like the majority of the people there. My friends and myself have decided next time we will do it.
I could of spent a fortune while I was there but was quite restrained in the fact I only bought a Scott Pilgrim T-shirt, next time I am taking a wedge of cash and going to give retail therapy to my inner geek.
I do have a little story from yesterday's expo trip....
In the memorabilia hall next to the main exhibition they had a few "celebrities" (many of whom had no geeky connections at all) signing autographs for fans and posing for photos, the ones in question that stood out were a table of glamour models and near them a couple of wideboy cockney "actors" that have had some success here in merry old England. One of my friends who was with me happens to be a bit of a fan and when I told him I just saw them he got quite excited and wanted to go straight over and meet them. I walked over to the area where they located and my friend went and started speaking to the pair and after a little while asked if he could get a picture taken with them. "It costs 10, its really busy so we are having to charge" said the first wideboy even though it wasnt exactly heaving at all, my friend looked a bit dejected and reluctantly took out his wallet to pay to have his picture snapped with the pair, the patter continued as they set up for the photo I would be taking, my friend asking the larger wideboy about their new film and thus inflating both their egos even larger. "yeah we start filming next year *SNIFFS* its going to be great, set out in ibiza *SNIFFS* its going to be big" said the big wideboy, he didnt look like he had a cold and he looked really alert and energetic so I'm not sure what the sniffing was about :-p dickhead. Picture snapped. Smaller wideboy shook my hand and was all matey with me, I made a wisecrack asking if he had anything to do with their table being right near the glamour models, it went right over his head. Be careful kids, drugs will probably make you stupid.
So my point is I found the whole thing a tiny bit disgusting really, should "celebrities" really be charging for pictures with fans? The people who helped put them where they are? Does it really hurt to give something back for free? It all seemed a bit much. I guess Seeing my friend go from all excited talking to a couple of people he admires (though god knows why I dont know) to looking dejected because he had to pay for the privaledge of having a photo snapped with them made me a little annoyed. But, He was stoked afterwards with his autographs and the bragging rights he would get for meeting this pair of imbeciles so I guess in the end it wasnt too much for him to pay. Anyways thats my rant about that over with :-p
Its been fun to do this little update but I have places to go and people to see and I am still in my dressing gown, I will make sure I am not such a stranger before my next post...