47 comments and 4 pages for my last journal entry. i think this is a new record.
you know, i used to be witty and charming. i don't know what happened. now everytime i'm in a scoial situation, i'm at a loss for words. last winter i thought it was the winter, but it didn't go away in the summer. i don't know. i feel like i've lost it. now that i think about it "i should be more talkative" it just makes it worse. like when you're dating and you're like "i need to find someone."
fuck that. i don't need anyone.
i like cell phones. i like how you can delete numbers with the push of a button, and then that person's just out of your life for good because you don't know how else to contact them. i went through my cellphone today and deleted a bunch of numbers. they were mostly girls, who had given me their number, asked me to call them, and never called me back. girls who's numbers i had but were never worth calling anyways. or girls i had a great time with at one time or another, maybe we slept together, maybe we didn't but it was something that lead me to expect something more. so i kept their number and tried to call them....and got no call back. so you forget about them, and don't delete their number right awy when you should because like an idiot you're thinking "gee, she might still call me back."
i should have deleted all these numbers right away, after the first week when they didn't call back. don't bother me with these games. just let me know you're not interested. or better yet, just don't give me your number in the first place. i should have told most of them to fuck off. i told one to fuck off.
my new years resolution is to drive off all the girls who try to flirt with me. i'm sick of it and i don't want anything to do with any of them. it's nothing personal, and i'm not trying to be a misogynist, i'm just gonna look out for myself a little better these days.
sorry if i'm sounding so melancholy and depressing. i had to get that out of my system cuz it's the end of the year and i don't want to go to brazil in a bad mood. so i gotta process last year's lesson and move on with a clean slate....so all in all, if you look at it that way, it's not so bad.
life's lessons > than dating
last year: i also increased my weight from 182lbs to 209lbs. mostly muscle weight, but i noticed a little bit of pudge. if i can make the same gains this year, i'll be a big fucking dude.
...and then i can wrestle
you know, i used to be witty and charming. i don't know what happened. now everytime i'm in a scoial situation, i'm at a loss for words. last winter i thought it was the winter, but it didn't go away in the summer. i don't know. i feel like i've lost it. now that i think about it "i should be more talkative" it just makes it worse. like when you're dating and you're like "i need to find someone."
fuck that. i don't need anyone.
i like cell phones. i like how you can delete numbers with the push of a button, and then that person's just out of your life for good because you don't know how else to contact them. i went through my cellphone today and deleted a bunch of numbers. they were mostly girls, who had given me their number, asked me to call them, and never called me back. girls who's numbers i had but were never worth calling anyways. or girls i had a great time with at one time or another, maybe we slept together, maybe we didn't but it was something that lead me to expect something more. so i kept their number and tried to call them....and got no call back. so you forget about them, and don't delete their number right awy when you should because like an idiot you're thinking "gee, she might still call me back."
i should have deleted all these numbers right away, after the first week when they didn't call back. don't bother me with these games. just let me know you're not interested. or better yet, just don't give me your number in the first place. i should have told most of them to fuck off. i told one to fuck off.
my new years resolution is to drive off all the girls who try to flirt with me. i'm sick of it and i don't want anything to do with any of them. it's nothing personal, and i'm not trying to be a misogynist, i'm just gonna look out for myself a little better these days.
sorry if i'm sounding so melancholy and depressing. i had to get that out of my system cuz it's the end of the year and i don't want to go to brazil in a bad mood. so i gotta process last year's lesson and move on with a clean slate....so all in all, if you look at it that way, it's not so bad.
life's lessons > than dating
last year: i also increased my weight from 182lbs to 209lbs. mostly muscle weight, but i noticed a little bit of pudge. if i can make the same gains this year, i'll be a big fucking dude.
...and then i can wrestle
VIEW 25 of 31 COMMENTS
lavezzaro1:
where are you? 
user209834982:
well, i'm probably staying with streetmuse, although, i just found out she may end up going to mexcio that week...so i may not be visiting afterall 