jodi_marie

I am such a fucked up person. There is so much going on and no one to talk to. I can't trust anyone with this. Its driving me mad. I feel so horrible. I don't know what i'm doing. I'm so lost. It makes me crazy how life can go so good, and then all of the sudden it hits like a tornado, and it just picks you and and spins you around and around. My heart is so heavy right now. I have so many thoughts running in and out. I miss things like you wouldn't know.

I have changed so much in the last 3 years. It amazes me. Part of me wishes I could go back to being the innocent good girl that I was. But I know that I have learned so much in those years, and that it has made me into a better person. I would like to say stronger but right now I doubt that. I still need to learn how to make the right decisions, but no matter how I try I always seem to fuck it up. Yes, I have gotten better, but I still have lasps' in judgement.

I hope I will be ok