So I took my final tonight, and am done with school until january. I'll prolly just work the whole break. WIth the exception of christmas.
I hate dating. I don't want to date. I want things to work out, but I know that they can't, or wont, or something like that. I hate the pain that comes with knowing that your ex is moving on, and dating other people, and your not. It's not even so much that i'm not, but the fact that the thought of him with someone else literally makes me sick. I just need someone to tell me that this will all pass and that I will be ok?! please anyone. It's pathetic, i'm 20 years old and I don't want to go on another date for the rest of my life. I'm sick of it, sick of everything it entales. Don't get me wrong, there is always that excitement of meeting someone new and getting to know them, but right now, I want what I know. And its the meeting someone that is what I don't want to have to deal with.
guh, i'm pretty much feeling like crap tonight. THere is alot on my mind but I don't really even know how to make sense of it. So its all going to stew in my brain and make me even more crazy and fucked up then I already am, but thats life I suppose
I hate dating. I don't want to date. I want things to work out, but I know that they can't, or wont, or something like that. I hate the pain that comes with knowing that your ex is moving on, and dating other people, and your not. It's not even so much that i'm not, but the fact that the thought of him with someone else literally makes me sick. I just need someone to tell me that this will all pass and that I will be ok?! please anyone. It's pathetic, i'm 20 years old and I don't want to go on another date for the rest of my life. I'm sick of it, sick of everything it entales. Don't get me wrong, there is always that excitement of meeting someone new and getting to know them, but right now, I want what I know. And its the meeting someone that is what I don't want to have to deal with.
guh, i'm pretty much feeling like crap tonight. THere is alot on my mind but I don't really even know how to make sense of it. So its all going to stew in my brain and make me even more crazy and fucked up then I already am, but thats life I suppose
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Second: breath out.
Living for the moment is good but not to the point where all you can see is how you feel right now.
It WILL pass and you will feel better, but only if you let it. You need to work on what makes you happy and healthy. Keep happy healthy people around you.
Then even when things go sour you have the back up you need to see the light at the end of the tunnel.
It's not instant but it does work if you really want it to.
Hugs. Hope ou are feeling better.
It is balls ass cold here and sometimes we can't get up the hill for the ice, BUT
it is really pretty here right now.
Snow is new to me being from eugene. I like it though.