jmesko80

Listening To: Avril Lavigne - Let Go: 01-Losing Grip

So I became aware of a job opportunity over the past few days and I thought about it and approached my boss with how he would feel if I were to apply. He was encouraging, but it seemed as though there was a hint of disappointment in his tone, which now thinking about it I understand. I know that he would never hold me back from a promotion or anything like that, but I still feel like I shocked him a little with asking how he would feel about me possibly leaving. So I thought about it all night at work and I came up with a different opinion. I was hired to do a job...that job is not complete (far from it). At first thought it was "that's a major pay increase!" Now don't get me wrong I have bills and shit like everyone else, but there are a few things more important to me than money in this world. One being friendship and the other being pride. When I was hired it was with the expectation to help him turn around a floundering store and make it into something everyone there could be proud of...something that people would look at and be like "holy shit these boys got their shit together...be like 389." We are not at that point yet and I can not...no I will not leave until that happens. You went to bat for me and it was selfish of me to just kinda spring that on you. Don't say its not a big deal because to me it is. I am sorry and we're in this together. This is kinda of jumbled mess, but whatever. The $ and the promotions will be there, but for the time being there is an unfinished job that needs to be done and I will be there every step of the way until that job is done. So how about you get promoted to store manager eventually and just take me with you?! On the subject of work, tonight was a good night. We missed plan by about 100 bucks, but I feel somewhat accomplished. I did 2 role plays with this one cat named steve and everyone pretty much thinks he's a waste of space, but he shows signs of brillance every now and then...all be it those moments are few and far apart however. So he suprises both Mark and myself with how he approached both role plays (the 2nd much harder than the first). So I am getting ready to leave for the night and he comes up and actually thanks me for helping him and says that he feels like he really learned a lot and is going to try to apply it from now on. Now if you've read my previous post stating simply "I am fed up with work," i should explain. I am the new guy on the block coming from Best Buy and I often times feel like people just don't get what I am trying to do or do get it and just don't give a fuck. So it was really nice to feel like I was getting through to someone, like I might actually be making a difference. Its so hard to judge if I have helped the store since getting there because of how shitty their system for judging such things are. Ok I think I am done venting for the evening. So again, I am sorry my friend!

Listening To: Avril Lavigne - Let Go: 09-Things I'll Never Say