jman310

Well, it would seem life is once again hopeful. Now that I have my referal into the hospital, I just have to sit back and wait for the call. I usually always have my cell turned off, but until i get the phone call to setup the appointment, im keeping it on. That is the hope that's keeping me alive, is that hope for the phone call to come in.

On a side note, Ive started to push myself again socially and decided to try to find a girlfriend (well, more aggressively than the b4 method of just sitting back). I know there's one out there for me, all the signs are there (tons of quizes telling me im what girls want, past experiences, etc.). I think I want one mostly for support and love. Mind you i dont think they could love me more than i would love them, but it would be great to have that companion.

Otherwise, Ive decided to keep myself away from social situations that could potentially make me depressed. Unfortunately that includes the gala that's happening in Toronto this summer . One day.....

Kodos to all that read these btw... tho i doubt anybody does, there may be the odd person that looks. Least it shows that there are ppl that care out there, even if they dont know me.