jizzikah

I want to thank everyone for being so sweet and supportive. That's what I really needed. The past couple of days have been an emotional rollar coaster for me. I have moments of happiness followed by a deep down period. Things will get better.

My family now wants me to come down home. My dad promises he'll be on his best behavior. But my 22 years of experience with him tell me otherwise. Family I haven't seen since I was like six will be there on Friday. So this my compromise, my middle ground...

I will go home. But only for Friday and Saturday. I will return to San Antonio on Saturday night and leave for Missouri on Sunday morning. I'll spend Christmas with Joshua's family. My family isn't going to be too happy, but they're just going to have to live with my decision.

My brother tried to give me shit about it and I told him flat out, "hey, I don't have to come period. Plus, why would I voluntarily put myself in an emotional stressful situation? I have to worry about my health and the baby's health. Because if I'm stressed, then the baby is stressed. And that is more important than everyone else's feelings."

My mom is coming around and I think my Dad is too, but for her sake. I caused so much stress and drama for my mom that she ended up in the hospital. She said the news raised her blood pressure skyrocketing. I don't know.

On a lighter note, I finished almost all of my Christmas shopping. Just a couple things for my best friends are needed. Alrighty...time to get ready for work.

to all. thank you from the bottom of my heart.