I had one of those moments today, where I am reminded once again how truly fragile life is. I value those moments more than I can put into words, however, at the same time I wish I could go through life living in my idealist dream world without interruption. So in that moment today I was feeling all vunerable and exposed and burst into tears, which I hate doing, because it always seems to happen at the most inappropriate times, and I have never managed to get control of it, and the old man sitting in the room with me started to look like he didn't know whether to sneak out the door or pity me..instead he handed me tissues and started to wipe off the mascara that was running down me cheeks, which I found to be completely endearing that I began to laugh. Later I had a conversation with a three year old, and was reminded how much I wish I could go back to that time, that place, where a fear could be easily subsided with a water spray bottled labeled "monster repellent". What I need today is to drown myself in a lovers kiss, to sleep inside their mouth until this moment passes..
