I have an interview tommorow at best buy...I know it isnt the best job ever...
but i really want it for some reason.
I just want to start making money. Then im going to look for a second job.
And I dont really want to take my class anymore....
I just dont think im cut out for school, i can never focus anymore.
Not on school, its been too long.
Ive been recording alot and i have wrote some really good stuff, and some stuff with stuart also.
Its all going to be very well put together and we have almost enough songs to play a show.
We just dont have anyone in the band. Which is fine because im not ready to go play shows yet.
I just want to make some money and be well off enough to pay rent at this lame lame house and then move out later hopefully alone.
I just think i really need the space.
But then again with certian people I think it would be fine..
Me and stuart were reading the bible and i finally got some answers that i really wanted to know.
And now i feel confident in myself.
I mean you might think that sounds really stupid.
But i dont care.
I freaking love god and jesus.
If i could be a good of a person as jesus i really think i would like that.
I mean throwing away all the bad (but so good) things in life would kinda make life easier.
If I could learn to not hate and just be happy with myself and living...
everything is so material these days. I wish i could just live my life.
I feel so out of touch with myself. I dont write the same anymore, i cant think, and i get no sleep.
Im so out of it all the time. But i have been happier lately, just stressed.
I think im always stressed out.
Bills bills bills and everyhing jumping on me all at once, deadlines relationships argh
I wish i could just sit care free for one day
but im always going to be worried about something.
There is so much i need to do, one step at a time.
Its always the same thing every year
have i even progressed at all through all these years?
Sometimes i wonder if what i did was a good thing or not..
God wish me luck tommorow guys.
I seriously need this job.
Or im moving to africa and getting chased by tigers.
not really..
but you never know!
there is too many things on my mind!!
but i really want it for some reason.
I just want to start making money. Then im going to look for a second job.
And I dont really want to take my class anymore....
I just dont think im cut out for school, i can never focus anymore.
Not on school, its been too long.
Ive been recording alot and i have wrote some really good stuff, and some stuff with stuart also.
Its all going to be very well put together and we have almost enough songs to play a show.
We just dont have anyone in the band. Which is fine because im not ready to go play shows yet.
I just want to make some money and be well off enough to pay rent at this lame lame house and then move out later hopefully alone.
I just think i really need the space.
But then again with certian people I think it would be fine..
Me and stuart were reading the bible and i finally got some answers that i really wanted to know.
And now i feel confident in myself.
I mean you might think that sounds really stupid.
But i dont care.
I freaking love god and jesus.
If i could be a good of a person as jesus i really think i would like that.
I mean throwing away all the bad (but so good) things in life would kinda make life easier.
If I could learn to not hate and just be happy with myself and living...
everything is so material these days. I wish i could just live my life.
I feel so out of touch with myself. I dont write the same anymore, i cant think, and i get no sleep.
Im so out of it all the time. But i have been happier lately, just stressed.
I think im always stressed out.
Bills bills bills and everyhing jumping on me all at once, deadlines relationships argh
I wish i could just sit care free for one day
but im always going to be worried about something.
There is so much i need to do, one step at a time.
Its always the same thing every year
have i even progressed at all through all these years?
Sometimes i wonder if what i did was a good thing or not..
God wish me luck tommorow guys.
I seriously need this job.
Or im moving to africa and getting chased by tigers.
not really..
but you never know!
there is too many things on my mind!!