Have you ever felt so uncomfortable like coming home to yourself after years of being away? Have you ever felt like not knowing anymore if it's all about choices or all about fate? My body and heart weren't ready for this.
Late night conversations with the stars, again. I always get myself into this mess.
Waiting for someone who is not coming back could crack you open. I'm slowly trying to teach myself to not chase someone who's left; but still can't believe how naive I was to think it was easy. At the end I'm sure all things come in two, there is no life without death, there is no joy without pain. Feelings and moments are temporary, is the balance of the universe I guess, so don't waste your time.
When you wake up thinking the work is done, when you look in the mirror and realise it's just you, never look back.
Sometimes memories bring me helplessly back to you. Sometimes it hurts so bad I feel nothing and realise that letting go can be the most difficult thing to do. When the world seems to be a place so broken to live, remember: there's no finish line to cross. Never quite yourself or hide your opinions for the fear of looking less beautiful. Never shrink your strange being in exchange for toxic company.
Don't let the past tear you in half, life is short, you deserve the pain just to celebrate the healing, grow, and then make bright gold out of the struggle. Let yourself glow, let yourself pour. Make friends out of strangers, believe in love at first sight. Be grateful for your home, family and friends. Or whatever makes you simile. Focus on warm energy.
There's more than the line you're stuck on, you just have to turn the page. Don't spend your life trying to correct your past, you can't always choose what to keep, it's just unhealthy. Re-invent yourself everyday, burn down and be ashes, and then rise and shine.
Goodnight
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photographicheart:
Profound thoughts and words. A great reminder that true inner strength comes through daily mental fitness, which can be exhausting but necessary work to arrive at a place of real confidence and peace.
dansiego3:
That is so beautiful. Keep writing. Heartache is a difficult thing. Sometimes our expectations are just not realistic. Love can be blind. I had a 5 year relationship one time, it ended super badly. My mom dying, my girlfriend cheated on me. I forgave her after my mom passed, i needed something that she couldn't give me. She cheated again a year later. Took 3-4 years to recover from those losses. More than that to appreciate it was useful learning. I forgave her ultimately. Married someone else though. Someone that fits me way better than that first attempt at love. I feel appreciated and loved. I like to do the same in return. Harmony is important. You'll find it.