I am unahppy and ashamed of myself....last night i ruined what was a perfectly good night out with my friends and boyfriend.....all because i cant hold my drink.
The night was excellent, we started with sushi and then we went to the fringe festival at the bank then to the bottle shop for cheap champagne which was drunk in some old town ruins and then we went into the darwin festival to see a live band, and then to throb nightclub to dance....it was great, but then on the cab ride home my man kept trying to gauge how jealous i was of him thinking one of my friends was hot, and i just did not care but he kept pressing buttons....and then i snapped because he kept egging on about it.... apparently i said some awful things which i dont remember and apparently i hit him on the shoulder in the shower (what am i??? a fucking neanderthal that is physical abuse!!!! he would never do that to me!!!!)....... i feel so fucked......and i feel that i am a crap girlfriend..............why did that happen.... my mind is fucked...... im a shit human being...... WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME!
I was trashed last night, i know it is not an excuse for my behaviour, but it didnt help it either...... i havent been that drunk in ages...........my body feels sick and i cant seem to get smiths songs out of my head......
how on earth can i make it up to him?
The night was excellent, we started with sushi and then we went to the fringe festival at the bank then to the bottle shop for cheap champagne which was drunk in some old town ruins and then we went into the darwin festival to see a live band, and then to throb nightclub to dance....it was great, but then on the cab ride home my man kept trying to gauge how jealous i was of him thinking one of my friends was hot, and i just did not care but he kept pressing buttons....and then i snapped because he kept egging on about it.... apparently i said some awful things which i dont remember and apparently i hit him on the shoulder in the shower (what am i??? a fucking neanderthal that is physical abuse!!!! he would never do that to me!!!!)....... i feel so fucked......and i feel that i am a crap girlfriend..............why did that happen.... my mind is fucked...... im a shit human being...... WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME!
I was trashed last night, i know it is not an excuse for my behaviour, but it didnt help it either...... i havent been that drunk in ages...........my body feels sick and i cant seem to get smiths songs out of my head......
how on earth can i make it up to him?
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if he holds it against you when he was being a dick too, you should probably kick his teeth in.
then again, i'm drunk while i'm writing this, so maybe my advice isn't the best one to take