Been an exhausting few months, so far. Work has been insanely busy, been trying to get the house fixed up and ready for the market, and more friends and family have been in the hospital. Can’t wait for May. Gonna go on a 4 day cruise and leave all this shit behind, till I get back. When I do, I’ll put the house up for sale and hopefully move to Irving. It’s much closer to work, and directly between Dallas and Fort Worth, so I can go anywhere in the metroplex without breaking the bank for gas. Seems like a good plan. It’s also much closer to my favorite club, although the studio 80 seems to be more fun. Love the music list their house DJ puts together, just hate saturday nights after 10:30, it gets way too crowded.
One of the bartnenders (at the new club) is crazy playful with me, but I’m trying to avoid that mess, especially after my last obsession. The bartender I would hang out with for nearly 4 years at the old club. I talked to her and slipped her a letter. It didnt go too well and She was very reclusive after that. So I Figured I needed some time to get my head together. Was real crazy about that woman, and I do mean crazy. So I removed her number from my phone, so I can’t act on impulse, and decided to leave her alone. If she comes back with anything, that’s great. But I have my doubts. I miss the hell out of her though. I really do.
At this point, I should know better than to get worked up over staff at a freaking club.
The new club is infinitely better. The quality of music is ongoing, cheap drinks, friendly patrons (made plenty of friends within the first few weeks, been going to the cactus for 4 years and only ever made friends with the staff, which is easy as hell), and lots and lots of women. The cactus was always 50/50, and even then, the place would sometimes be nearly unoccupied. People mostly kept to themselves, too. I usually got hit on, but the women were normally heavily intoxicated, and that really doesn’t attract me. Don’t get me wrong, I hit it hard, but I do it to get my ass out on the dance floor to let loose.
Been trying to find ways to distract myself, as well. Trying to pick percussion back up, playing dance central and just dance, increased my workout routine, painting miniatures, etc. Got way too much on my mind. Strangely enough, the one place I hate the most has been the best distraction.... Work. Place has been terribly busy, primarily thanks to politics. Still want to find something more challenging, tho. It’s hard to really train myself or challenge myself when I’m basically flipping graphics. Ah well... the money is good, the benefits are amazing, I’m damn good at it, and the job security is perfect. Shouldn’t really complain. Im just bored of it. 7.5 years of this, and it’s become less and less involved. I’m sure selling the house and moving will reignite the flame, tho. Need to change the endless routine and move on.
Vegas may still be in my future. If I can’t make ends meet in Irving, I may just leave Texas and try a new state. Vegas is very happening, especially for someone with my skill set. I’m sure that when I finally meet someone, here, that will all change. Mostly just lonely and very bored. The club is really the only thing keeping me entertained.