It has been a rough few months. My job has become less than exciting and I feel like my value there has dropped dramatically. I hurt my back after increasing my workout routine a month ago, my monthly house payment has increased due to insurance and I am falling for a co-worker. Of course the last bit is supposed to be something great, but sadly she is in another relationship. Although when I talk to her it seems like there really is nothing there... Sucks so much, because she makes me laugh and makes work worth attending.
I don't know how much longer I am going to be working there. This job has been killing my confidence and interest in design... When there is no one there to mentor me, what am I going to do? Everyone is too busy to teach, it's all daily-work micromanagement now. Sucks because deep inside I want this job, but I just can't handle everything that has been happening. I'm not asking for a simple job, I want one that will challenge my skills and motivate me to be even better... Don't have the time to do that here... We are the fast-food of graphic design for televised media.
They are trying to turn me into a programmer... they put all their eggs into one basket, to teach one artist there how to work in 3D... I was always turned down when I requested it. The hours I requested were given to the new guy from Chicago, who got the Senior designer job. I have nothing personal against him, I just lost all my faith in management and their ability to balance things. I think they know I don't like them, we avoid each other. That's not a good thing, but at this point leaving this place would at least lighten the stress... I just need a backup plan, a new job. Found one, but I got to jump through hoops and such to even qualify for it.... Not so simple to do when your motivation is gone, you have no one to support your decision, and spent 8 hours of sitting in front of a computer doing tedious daily work.
Ah well, will all blow over one day and I will be laughing at these troubles.
Good news is that I'm going to Vegas!!! Been a few years, but I'm ready. Can't wait to walk Fremont St again. Will be nice to just put everything behind me, forget about work and just suck in the freedom... And roll the dice.
Had a party a few months back. The turnout was larger than I had expected. Sadly, those who requested specific alchohol chooses, did not show up, so we had plenty of what Guinness and no Shiner at the end of the night. Hell, I still have 13 bottles of Guinness in the fridge. I don't really drink...
Been looking at the UHD TVs. Direct Buy has LG TV's in stock.... Flipping huge and expensive, and the more I look into their reviews the less I want them. I found a website that rates televisions based on their latency for gaming. The LG series in UHD seemed to be terrible, Samsung in the same boat, and Sony apparently has the best rating... Now... It could be possible this site may be getting a little under the table for a good review, but I may further investigate when I decide where to go. I get closer and closer to sticking with my 75" Laserview. Sure it has bad latency, but the TV grew on me and just looks amazing... If I can find a UHD with decent latency and at least 65", I may go for it... And as I said, seems to be Sony.
I replaced the screen on my Wii U gamepad, Friday. Had to pull it apart 2 times, because I forgot to remove the touchscreen from the original led display and add it to the new one,... Durp. I hear something tiny shaking around in it and the screen is just a hair off, but that's ok... It's working, that's all I need. Nice to have it back.
I gave the Fitbit a try this past week, going to return it because it kind of annoys me as I wear it. That's not all the truth either; I was a little upset that I paid $100 for it and a buddy of mine bought a Nike version that has an led display, trophies, and more. I felt like I got ripped off when I found out he spent $85. Oh, and his is submersible in 8 feet of water.... Mine can manage a shower, that is all. So... Returning it. May just wait till the appleWatch comes out. Get the nice silver band that breathes. So long as my skin gets air, it doesn't bother me.... Like a typical watch.
Anyway... I really would love to escalate the friendship with my co-worker, but my work ethic kinda pushes me away and I'm not sure how she would take it. She is very open about things, I most likely won't be working here any more within the next few months and I want to at least keep in contact. I would really feel like shit if I didn't even try. I think she passively invited me on her trip to Japan, a month and a half ago. She went on about it and how her boyfriend wasn't gonna go, and a buddy of her's dropped out. She never really said the word to invite me, but it felt like she was trying to ask me. I really wanted to go, I would have loved to go to Japan, specifically with her... But the timing was just too bad... And the more I think about it, I feel like a complete idiot... I could have invited her to Vegas. Yeah... Damnit, I now feel so stupid. Although, at that time I was a little more reserved about her relationship. The true sparks popped a few weeks ago when I went out of my way to buy her some Starbucks because she was feeling down from all the bad news we were getting in. Figured that would cheer her up... Did more than that, she was wired the rest of the night, lol! She was so funny! Even gave me a huge hug for the coffee.
I could go on and on, but I need to go to bed before I put in another 11hours night sleep.