I have been having a very difficult time to concentrate. My mind does not wonder so much anymore, but it seems like I'm not all here. I have been debating what to write in this blog for almost 20 minutes now. Nothing special to tell, life goes on and things are exactly as they always are.
I watched Cast Away tonight. Sadly I fell asleep during the scene when Tom Hanks reaches the island. I have been very tired lately, I think I have been putting too much on my mind. The movie has a great ending and theme. It makes you want to keep moving forward, because anything can happen to you. This is the kind of motivation I needed to get back into writing and programming my games, although it has been difficult these past months due to work and my lack of sleep.
Anyway... There is not much else to tell. These weeks have been going by so fast, it kinda makes me a little worried if I am wasting time. Sure I like being around friends, but they take up so much of my time that I barely keep any for myself. I want to do things other then the weekly routine. I would really like to explore new things, get back into drumming, finish developing a Flash game, write some music, travel back to New England for a couple of weeks, or fall for someone. I want some change. I'm tired of being alone. I want to know what it feel like to have someone who would support you as you would back, have that mutual feeling of trust and love. I don't want to sound corny, but I'm seriously tired of living without someone to live for.
All my friends keep trying to tell me how I have it made because I don't have a girlfriend, but I strongly disagree. They don't know what it feel like to be the only person in our group at a movie or dinner who sits alone, watching as the couples all hold each other. I know I don't have room to say anything due to lack of experience, but neither do they. Some people just don't know what they have until its gone...
I watched Cast Away tonight. Sadly I fell asleep during the scene when Tom Hanks reaches the island. I have been very tired lately, I think I have been putting too much on my mind. The movie has a great ending and theme. It makes you want to keep moving forward, because anything can happen to you. This is the kind of motivation I needed to get back into writing and programming my games, although it has been difficult these past months due to work and my lack of sleep.
Anyway... There is not much else to tell. These weeks have been going by so fast, it kinda makes me a little worried if I am wasting time. Sure I like being around friends, but they take up so much of my time that I barely keep any for myself. I want to do things other then the weekly routine. I would really like to explore new things, get back into drumming, finish developing a Flash game, write some music, travel back to New England for a couple of weeks, or fall for someone. I want some change. I'm tired of being alone. I want to know what it feel like to have someone who would support you as you would back, have that mutual feeling of trust and love. I don't want to sound corny, but I'm seriously tired of living without someone to live for.
All my friends keep trying to tell me how I have it made because I don't have a girlfriend, but I strongly disagree. They don't know what it feel like to be the only person in our group at a movie or dinner who sits alone, watching as the couples all hold each other. I know I don't have room to say anything due to lack of experience, but neither do they. Some people just don't know what they have until its gone...