This has been a very strange year.
Graduate from college, find myself struggling to find a job in my career, Certain friends bring me down due to their very own depression, and life is just flying by without anything special or exciting taking place. I'm not gonna get into depression, because talking about it makes it so much worse then it should be, thinking about the bad side of everything just makes me feel worse about my situation. So I will move on from this...
I got my money this week from the table-top game army I sold, and I made some ok money. So I'm keeping most of it for survival, and the rest I'm spending on my friends tomorrow. I have a small get together at my place where they can enjoy the pool, watch a movie, then go out and have Bosses pizza on me. They are all excited to come over and enjoy a day of relaxation near the pool, and of course enjoy the delicious flavor of Bosses. After we eat, we may actually just sit down at the table and enjoy some board games like Arkham Horror or Mansions of Madness. Two really fun games that Re involved in the HP Lovecraftian Mythos. Real cool stuff for Horror Fans.
There should be around 12 of us tomorrow, so it may do well as a party. Sadly, a few will not make it due to scheduling, but that's ok, though it would be awesome if they could make it.
I have decided to give myself a little more time to think about Horror Scape and it's new release. I didn't make the deadline I wanted this year, then again I never made or declared an official deadline, but it still would have been awesome to release something this year. Keeping myself active with my work not just helps my influence but also helps the soul, because there is nothing like completing a project and feeling proud and excited about how it turned out.
This one is turning out great. It's a 2d game but it plays like an arcade game with a 3d movement zone, kinda like TMNT turtles in time and The Simpsons Arcade. I figured out some programming that allows me to play with the z-index of all objects in the game based on their location in the screen. The only problem I'm having is the art design... I keep changing my mind and I'm just never satisfied with what I come up with. I want to go in depth and make it look amazing, but that will just add way to much time and effort for me to continue. one person drawing the animations, programming, scripting, rasterizing, composing music, and writing everything is just a lot of work, and the thought of all that time invested just kills the motivation. Would love to get a team together, but everyone I talk to want me to make their game. I do all the work, and they just tell me what their game should be like... And it always ends up being the same thing.
Anyway... Next time I update I may just upload a picture or two of the models I have recently painted. They look great, some better then others, but still look great. P3 paints are just a little difficult to work with.
I'm loving the game though. I hated playing warhammer, I just loved to paint the figures and show them off. But in this game, I can show off the figures and still enjoy the simple and more realistic rules of the game. Yes, I am a nerd, but I love what I do and what I work with, it makes me happy and gives me something to do other then watch tv or play video games. Takes no power, except proper lighting, but painting hels center me. The concentration allows me to forget everything and just work hard to get the fine details done right. I get into such deep concentration that when it becomes 82 degrees upstairs, I don't even notice. I'm to busy painting.
Anyway.... I'm hoping things get better over the next few months. I'd hate to feel as though my degree gave me nothing in return for the headache it caused over the past 3 years. Career Services at Devry are doing nothing for me but annoying me with emails and phone calls over weekly activity. The only 2 jobs I was offered through their service were both in marketing and retail.... I'm so glad that they are taking the time to send me jobs that are not only the total opposite of what I want I went to school for, but are also paying nearly minimum wage, and are located on the other side of DFW.... The gas alone would eat my paycheck. Also, why would I work a typical job when I have one right down the street... Decry has been jerking me around for 2 years now... It's time to cut the cord and just walk away with degree.
Please excuse any typos. I'm using the iPad, and it loves to revise everything I type without mention. Decry = Devry ....
Graduate from college, find myself struggling to find a job in my career, Certain friends bring me down due to their very own depression, and life is just flying by without anything special or exciting taking place. I'm not gonna get into depression, because talking about it makes it so much worse then it should be, thinking about the bad side of everything just makes me feel worse about my situation. So I will move on from this...
I got my money this week from the table-top game army I sold, and I made some ok money. So I'm keeping most of it for survival, and the rest I'm spending on my friends tomorrow. I have a small get together at my place where they can enjoy the pool, watch a movie, then go out and have Bosses pizza on me. They are all excited to come over and enjoy a day of relaxation near the pool, and of course enjoy the delicious flavor of Bosses. After we eat, we may actually just sit down at the table and enjoy some board games like Arkham Horror or Mansions of Madness. Two really fun games that Re involved in the HP Lovecraftian Mythos. Real cool stuff for Horror Fans.
There should be around 12 of us tomorrow, so it may do well as a party. Sadly, a few will not make it due to scheduling, but that's ok, though it would be awesome if they could make it.
I have decided to give myself a little more time to think about Horror Scape and it's new release. I didn't make the deadline I wanted this year, then again I never made or declared an official deadline, but it still would have been awesome to release something this year. Keeping myself active with my work not just helps my influence but also helps the soul, because there is nothing like completing a project and feeling proud and excited about how it turned out.
This one is turning out great. It's a 2d game but it plays like an arcade game with a 3d movement zone, kinda like TMNT turtles in time and The Simpsons Arcade. I figured out some programming that allows me to play with the z-index of all objects in the game based on their location in the screen. The only problem I'm having is the art design... I keep changing my mind and I'm just never satisfied with what I come up with. I want to go in depth and make it look amazing, but that will just add way to much time and effort for me to continue. one person drawing the animations, programming, scripting, rasterizing, composing music, and writing everything is just a lot of work, and the thought of all that time invested just kills the motivation. Would love to get a team together, but everyone I talk to want me to make their game. I do all the work, and they just tell me what their game should be like... And it always ends up being the same thing.
Anyway... Next time I update I may just upload a picture or two of the models I have recently painted. They look great, some better then others, but still look great. P3 paints are just a little difficult to work with.
I'm loving the game though. I hated playing warhammer, I just loved to paint the figures and show them off. But in this game, I can show off the figures and still enjoy the simple and more realistic rules of the game. Yes, I am a nerd, but I love what I do and what I work with, it makes me happy and gives me something to do other then watch tv or play video games. Takes no power, except proper lighting, but painting hels center me. The concentration allows me to forget everything and just work hard to get the fine details done right. I get into such deep concentration that when it becomes 82 degrees upstairs, I don't even notice. I'm to busy painting.
Anyway.... I'm hoping things get better over the next few months. I'd hate to feel as though my degree gave me nothing in return for the headache it caused over the past 3 years. Career Services at Devry are doing nothing for me but annoying me with emails and phone calls over weekly activity. The only 2 jobs I was offered through their service were both in marketing and retail.... I'm so glad that they are taking the time to send me jobs that are not only the total opposite of what I want I went to school for, but are also paying nearly minimum wage, and are located on the other side of DFW.... The gas alone would eat my paycheck. Also, why would I work a typical job when I have one right down the street... Decry has been jerking me around for 2 years now... It's time to cut the cord and just walk away with degree.
Please excuse any typos. I'm using the iPad, and it loves to revise everything I type without mention. Decry = Devry ....