jhay

I listen to people, consider their words, give them weight. I use other peoples lives and errors to direct my actions as if I'd made their mistakes. Its worked out pretty well for me, because I'm not so blind to see that others may have been in my positions before me. This is nothing specific, I'm speaking broadly.. because lately several of my friends have come to me for advice and using the hard won experience I've gained over decades of making enormous mistakes I've passed them on advice which, if followed, would have gained them the success they sought.

But no one ever listens to me.

I'm not sure why they don't. I've made some of the most colossal fuckups known to man, I've done everything wrong in order to find out how to do it right. I've started from rock bottom so many times it seems natural to me to have absolutely nothing. and I'm okay with that.

I laugh at peoples petty problems. They hate me for it. They don't know what real problems are. Peoples priorities are so fucked up anymore.

Its tempting to stop helping people. But its not in my nature. I fix what is broken. Whether it be mechanical, electrical, or biological. I fix. Its not easy.

But for reals? Its fucking exhausting sometimes.