jharveyjr54

So fuckin BOO HOO me right? Since I last posted anything my mother was doing great, till like 2 weeks ago. Now they say she has 1-3 months. And i should be sad right? Mad at the world? But its really hard to be upset when I call her and call her (i was calling everyday, now I'm down to calling 2-3 times a week.) and she doesn't answer my calls or even return them. Ever. no exaggeration. I get to talk to her once every 2 weeks or so now. WTF! This shit is crushing me inside and any time i say anything my pops or sister jump in and say its "not the right time" so when the hell is? After she dies? should i cal a frickin seance and say "hey, the fact that you avoid talking to me, or whatever the hell it is your doing, is ripping my heart out an shitting on it?" Like don't even know what to do and i thought i had this shit under control. No matter what happened, good or bad i was gonna be there, be the one she talked to about things. I don't have any gripes. we never had any issues between us other than the same ol shit when your a teenager. So whats this crap? How do i get left out when i was the only one that was always there? Dad was over the road, never home. Her and my sister clashed at every turn. And I'm the fuckin guy that gets left out while she's on her death bed? Fuck that. I'm thru. Yeah I'll regret it. But what else can I do?