jezz

merry fuckin x-mas to me. fuck fuck fuck!!!!!!! my doctor just told me i have to have surgery again, on the same spot that, this will be the 3rd time hes had to do surgery and fix his shit. he told me my tounge ring and lip ring is the reason i keep having problems but for shit sakes ive had this problem and hes done surgery on the area before i even had the piercings. so he said he wont do the surgery because of my piercings and is sending me to a diff doctor and also told me he wont see me unless i take them out but fuck that. he doesnt know what hes doing, especially since he keeps fuckin it up. and now im trying to recover from broncitus or however you spell it. and it wont go away...

and umm lets see my head doctor put my on a mood stabilizer to go along with my other psycho pills because ive been bitchy and its not working....

in sad news, my lil shih tzu dizzy died early this morning... ;( i miss my baby boy. he did live a long life and got extremlly spoiled and lots of lovin while he was alive. dizzy had just turned 16 at the end of august...so yea...like i said he lived a long time. its weird without him. it still hasnt fully clicked in my mind that hes gone, i want to cry so bad, i can feel the tears bein held back, but it just wont come out. i cant even look at his bed, its so empty...but at least he lived a long healthy life and died knowing he was super loved, and i can rest knowing he will be in a better place where he wont be suffering from old age anymore. i miss my baby, no other dog will be able to live up to him, he was just fuckin awsome, straight up. and i dont care if i sound like a freak because im moarning over my dog, whatever.

peace out