Alright Skydork, but only for you...
I've never really been into writing about myself all that much, but here it goes. Today is my daddy's birthday, my cousin Ethan's is tomorrow, my long time friend who used to live across the street, Natalie, her is on Saturday, my other cousin who just recently got married, Heidi, her's was on Monday, and yadda yadda yadda. Monday was also the 3 yr. anniversary of my grandfather's passing, Sunday my cousin's grandmother from the opposite side of the family, who also happens to be good friends with our joint grandmother, passed away. With the holiday season rushing upon us, i see happiness, sadness, anger, depression, love, hate, etc. all spewing into one big jumbled mess. Doesn't this wonderful ball of emotions just make you want to explode??
As for me, I broke up with my boyfriend of 3 1/2 years, somewhat kicked him out of the house, while also trying to deal with an illegal housemate that got arrested for peeing on the street, saying his real name, not the one on his fake ID, and finding that the other guy that supplied him with his ID had charges held against him such as terrorism. My living situation is a mess, my love life and personal aspect is totally fucked up, my family is one big crowd of hateful individuals that talk shit behind each others backs, works sucks, i'm broke as a joke, and still i have to dig deep and stay smiling or else i bring other people down and that's what the holiday seasons all about. Everyone pretends to love the holidays, but do they really enjoy any of it? Tis the season to be thankful for good friends, good family, to give and not receive, and to make the world a better place for those less fortunate. How many of us actually feel this loving, giving spirit throughout the month of december? all i know is that no matter how much stress i have going on in my life, the holiday spirit makes it at least 20% worse. But i just keep hiding behind my fake smile, b/c who knows, maybe i'll make someone's life a little brighter.
-Genevieve
p.s--i don't mean to be so cynical, you just caught me in a bad frame of mind, pissed off to no end about practically everything in my life. (i only mean half of it.)
I've never really been into writing about myself all that much, but here it goes. Today is my daddy's birthday, my cousin Ethan's is tomorrow, my long time friend who used to live across the street, Natalie, her is on Saturday, my other cousin who just recently got married, Heidi, her's was on Monday, and yadda yadda yadda. Monday was also the 3 yr. anniversary of my grandfather's passing, Sunday my cousin's grandmother from the opposite side of the family, who also happens to be good friends with our joint grandmother, passed away. With the holiday season rushing upon us, i see happiness, sadness, anger, depression, love, hate, etc. all spewing into one big jumbled mess. Doesn't this wonderful ball of emotions just make you want to explode??
As for me, I broke up with my boyfriend of 3 1/2 years, somewhat kicked him out of the house, while also trying to deal with an illegal housemate that got arrested for peeing on the street, saying his real name, not the one on his fake ID, and finding that the other guy that supplied him with his ID had charges held against him such as terrorism. My living situation is a mess, my love life and personal aspect is totally fucked up, my family is one big crowd of hateful individuals that talk shit behind each others backs, works sucks, i'm broke as a joke, and still i have to dig deep and stay smiling or else i bring other people down and that's what the holiday seasons all about. Everyone pretends to love the holidays, but do they really enjoy any of it? Tis the season to be thankful for good friends, good family, to give and not receive, and to make the world a better place for those less fortunate. How many of us actually feel this loving, giving spirit throughout the month of december? all i know is that no matter how much stress i have going on in my life, the holiday spirit makes it at least 20% worse. But i just keep hiding behind my fake smile, b/c who knows, maybe i'll make someone's life a little brighter.
-Genevieve
p.s--i don't mean to be so cynical, you just caught me in a bad frame of mind, pissed off to no end about practically everything in my life. (i only mean half of it.)
-SuprisedJu