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Edited to say:

Today was the first day in well over a month that I have woke up feelin' human...this last month has been difficult at best for me because of all of the dog drama, dealing with helping Ryan get settled back into Pocatello and worrying about the fact that his medical condition is deteriorating rapidly at a time when he's waiting for Medicaid to approve his request for medical, being a little depressed at the notion of hitting my 45th birthday and feelin' like maybe my time for putting together a set for SG had passed me by and feelin' really crappy with having a Lupus flare which leaves me in pain 24/7 and keeps me from sleepin' a full night. *sighs* Yeah, I'm whining...Oh and I'm freakin' sick of winter too! Anyway...today was the first day since before Christmas that I woke up feelin' as if I wanted to face the day. I wanted to say thank you to everyone who's hung in there with me over the course of the last month or two...I know that I've not been able to be there for you all as much as I should be or that I would like to be and I'm grateful to everyone who's not dumped me from there friends list and who continue to stop by even if I've not been able to reciprocate.

You all ROCK and I appreciate you more than I can say

Back to my original blog....

I've sat down in front of my computer to blog every single day for the last couple of weeks...hoping to out some of the big ole' gob of stuff that has been simmering just below the surface of my awareness but it would seem that I have a wicked sick case of "bloggers block" I'm sure it's prolly hard to believe that the monster blog queen is struggling with words right now but that happens sometimes when I'm having issues with Lupus and then I fret too much over whether or not my spew is going to come forth in any sort of cohesive manner...a perfect storm for bloggers block!

So yeah...here goes:

Many of you have asked about recently about how the "dog pound" has been doing and I'm sad to say that we had to take one of the girls back to the pound last week after about a month or so in which she'd become increasingly agressive towards the other two dogs. The situation reached critical mass early last week after we had three really nasty dog fights within about a 24 hour period of time, one of which that left the littlest one with several bite wounds that required a vet visit and antibiotics. *sighs* When Kiya would get that way, she'd just latch on to the other dogs and not let go! The other two dogs finally just had enough of her and on the very last morning Flashmo ended up with bites all over his hands after having to break up a free-for-all between the three of them. We had run out of things to try and we were concerned about what might happen during the day hours when neither of us were here to intervene on the behalf of Flash and Maya, so it was time to take her back to the pound. We've never given up on a rescue boxer before and with having had five of them now we were well aware of the fact that they can be a mitt-full when you bring one of them into your home...but we'd never dealt with one who had such agression issues. Anyway, I took her back and the woman at the pound told me that they wouldn't be able to adopt her back out...and deep down inside I know that was what was probably for the best at this point but it made me very sad to know that she was going to have to be put down. I know that sounds kind of crazy after everything I just said, and after all of the trouble we've had since we brought the dogs home with all of the stuff that was destroyed...it's just that she also had a very sweet, docile, gentle side to her personality as well. I'm just not great at putting animals down I guess, I'm still haunted sometimes by the memory of holding our beloved Elizabeth when it was time for her to go even though I know she was dying and it was the humane thing to do. *sighs* Anyway, I know I would have felt badly if Kiya ended up going home with someone and hurting their pet, child or just anyone in general...I'm trying to keep things in perspective. On a side note on this topic...we've not had a single issue with stuff being chewed or destroyed since that time, so there is hope that we will soon have a normal house again with like uh...furniture and everything!

Let's see...what else? Oh, I don't know if anyone remembers awhile back when I was blogging about an incident with one of our residents that left me a little shaken in the office or not...but last week said resident went balistic on his physician during an office visit and ended up destroying the doctor's office, biting the doctor and kicking him in the junk and trying to put his head through the wall repeatedly. So, I guess it goes without sayin' that I am planning to continue to give this particular resident a WIDE berth when he graces us with his presence in the office! I knew the minute that whole deal started with me that he was dangerous and for some reason nobody there wants to be the one to pull the plug on him when it comes to putting him in an institution instead of trying to care for him in a group home that has little to no security measures in place for the staff. GAAAAACKK!!

Flashmo and I went to an awesome concert last weekend; we got tickets to Between the Trees, Madina Lake and Anberlin for our Christmas present from the girl kid and her beau What a cool show it was! The venue was only big enough to hold maybe 200-250 people, tops! No matter where you were in the place you could see the stage, which is a big deal when you are only 5'7" tall and wear glasses for distance vision Yup, I broke down and wore my Geezer glasses to the show and was Oh so very grateful that I did!! The best part of the whole deal was how inexpensive the tickets were...I can't believe you can still get three hours or better of awesome music for $15.00 in this day and age!

I think that's all I got for you now! I'm just happy that I finally was able to put together this much after the last week of tryin'

Hope all's well in your world these days...much loves